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Timing

2010-11-22T20:48:00.000-08:00

It's the same time of the year again where all those who went to australia to study are returning. But for me this is not exactly the time to party because I still have loads of work to do.

Assignents to be completed by 9th december:
Enterpreneurship & Business Essay 26/11/10
Computer Lab Exam 30/11/10
Computer in Business Project 9/12/10
Econs Essay 10/11/10
Enterpreneurship & Business Project 13/12/10
Computer in Business Project Presentation 13/12/10

Parents are now in Shanghai so I've got a bit more freedom. Very annoying because I could be enjoying this time instead of rushing on my assignments.

Can someone write the essay for me please?

Disgrace

2010-10-29T09:44:00.000-07:00

I've decided not to go to overrated restaurants which serve bad foods especially those chain restaurants. I was talking to a friend who worked at Secret Recipe and he said all the food were ready made and when u order it, they just take it out from the fridge and microwave it.

If Gordon Ramsay was a malaysian all these stupid chains would be closed down already. So there isn't going to be Delicious, Secret Recipe, Chillis, TGIF, Madam Kwan for me anymore. Disgrace to the malaysian food industry. I would rather microwave Tesco foods myself than to go to a restaurant just for the people to microwave the food for u and charge u rm20 for it.

Notting to shout about

2010-10-17T09:12:00.002-07:00

I'm officially a student at Nottingham Malaysia. Been here for 3 weeks already. Starting first year again studying Finance, Accounting & Management.

My friends here are all from 2nd year. I didnt bother or should I say that I dont intent to make any first years' friends. The no-future lalazais filled my lectures and caught me thinking, shouldnt they be selling pirated dvds? I sit in the back rows most of the time. And every lecture I would start missing the time in warwick and cambridge. Friends who I really appreciate having. I still remember the time at warwick. Everyone starting off with sky-high ego. Conflicts filled the script of the start of my warwick drama. Issues with paul, yumin, samantha, cassie, kahyan, yee eng, nicole, ruizhe... ... But along the way, time sealed the deadlock. It was the grease of our friendships. All of us lowered down our ego and supported each other in the end. And the so-called rootes gang, especially tze xuan, swarna and yumin, are exactly best people to go to when it comes to food.

Now at nottingham, I really dont see the point making friends who only care to talk bout modifying their protons, installing some gozilla-asshole-sized exhaust pipes with their parents' hard earned money to just create some stupid noise that no one actually cares. These people will never drive the car I drive and will never have the money i have. And honestly, to spend 10k-15k modifying a proton to show off crap in front of their gfs, I would rather use the 15k to treat my gf meals for the next 5 years without letting her pay a single cent, if i really love her. So clearly, these people dont love their gfs at all.

UK, I'm coming back to you. Please allow me to love you again.

Simple & Nice

2010-10-16T11:47:00.000-07:00

One of my favourites at the moment.

I do not need a Lady Gaga to entertain me. A simple, hot Cheryl with her lovely voice is enough to make my day.

Unfit

2010-10-15T11:32:00.000-07:00

I feel very unfit at the moment. Gained so much weight since i came back from the UK. Didn't really care about it until futsal just now. Had to hop off the pitch due to back pain in less than 10mins.

It's time to start reducing my weight already but maybe not as drastic as the time in the UK. Will start eating fruits before every meal. Let's hope it works.

Keefong, Heen Leong & I

My primary school friends. We were about the same heights back in those days and now they are 178cm and I'm still 166cm. I'm not greedy, I will be very happy to reach 172cm. Will it happen?

2010-06-23T17:44:00.000-07:00

Love knows no limits

True friendships last a lifetime

I'm glad you did...

2010-06-10T18:48:00.000-07:00

Was on skype for 5hours with you and i was shown this video. I thank you and I will share it with everyone.

Christian The Lion

sweet.

Miss the stupid things that we always do together. And finally today we got a new entry in our collection.

Chipmunks - Bom Bom Pow

Oh dear....

2010-05-25T02:27:00.001-07:00

Revision time allocation for 1st year final exams.

Mathematics A - 19th - 21st May (3 days)

Logic - 22nd - 25th May (4 days)

Politics - 26th - 1st June (7 days)

Statistics B - 3rd - 6th June (4 days)

Economics - 7th - 9th June (3 days)

Accounting - 10th - 13th June (4 days)

Decartes/Mills - 15th - 16th June (2 days)

Scientific Method- *** (0 days)

*** This doesn't look good at all. 14 days short of revision time.***

100

2010-05-20T18:17:00.000-07:00

this is my 100th post on this blog. i havent been to any of my previous posts before today. I was in the library studying with ken until he got his hands on my laptop and started browsing my blog. And this was when i realised something.

I was reading through my old posts. It was a shocking experience. The blogger was totally different than the one today. The guy who wanted to score 100% in all of his papers, the guy who was supposed to go to oxford, the guy who WORKED HARD. honestly, reading through those posts, I thought that i never knew that guy before.

It's my 100th post that i realised the purpose of blogging.

I dreamed a dream...

2010-05-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

The dream i had last night was a surprise. It sort of resembles my thought during the day, and made as a movie in the dream.

I have been thinking lately of the past. And it brought back memories that I thought just happened yesterday. Fresh and floating in my head. From academic achievements, love, leadership experience and the ability to turn most things into success.

But the dream last night was purely on the special one. The interesting thing about the dream was that the dream happened in the future, and it provided 2 different endings. The first scene had a happy ending while the 2nd dream was of a less successful ending.

First dream - i was with the special one shopping at a mall after meeting up with her parents. We went on to pick some patchi chocolates and most of the time was spent there. with so many sweet conversations we had at the place i really couldnt be bothered to type out. The remainder of the dream were ordinary days which we lived extraordinarily together.

Second dream - The special one invited her secondary school friends in malaysia to her house for a small gathering the night before her return to australia. At her house i had a conversation with hong lim about university as his university was near to mine and this suggested that the event took place in the future. When the special one appeared in the scene, i felt left out and was too nervous to engage in any direct conversation with her. Soon after we decided the location for dinner, i found my car missing from where i parked and i told them to leave first while i report to the police station nearby. I had a big quarrel with the polices and it took nearly 3 hours. By the time i called her, she was already about to leave and she said bye. the grieve filled my heart with sorrow as the dream ended.

So this morning after waking up puzzled with the dream, i decided to share this song on my blog and hope for the best as my life unfolds.

When you didnt appreciate the best when you should have....

2010-05-14T18:49:00.000-07:00

This song always lead me to the past... Good or bad?

It was a sweet memory.

I miss you...

2010-05-11T16:53:00.000-07:00

if you are reading this post, you know that the song of this blog is meant for you.

Just want to let you know that...

I miss you...

Charity Night!

2010-05-04T18:30:00.000-07:00

This post is overdue and i shall post about it right now!

Last friday was our Warwick Malaysian Association's charity night. So besides the traditional charity thingy this time we had a large chunk of it taken up by human auction. Human auction is an event where you put your friend up for auction and the highest bidder would be allowed to instruct the friend to do random stuff that was agreed on.

I was the 1st successful bidder, splashing a tiny amount of £9 for our incoming MSA president - Paul Yung to wax his legs. Followed up we had very exciting bids and successfully secured by

Clement - £43 for jasmin's lap dance,

Mingyi - £30 blind date with yee eng,

Paul Yung - £10 blind date with Min Hao

Ken Tan - £12 for Yumin to be his one-day-slave,

Tarwarna - £25 for hazim and kaishen to have a duet while one sits on another's lap,

Mingyi - £70 a 15sec kiss on the cheek by yee eng.

Those are as far as I could remember. I had a lot of fun too cause i managed to snatch

Paul Yung - £9 to wax his legs,

Hui Qi - £20 to be my swimming instructor,

Nicole Lim - £45 for a date.

And one thing to mention is that I loved Hazim's asam laksa. It was really nice. Feels like home's cooking. I really enjoy the night and hope the donation proves to be useful for the recipients of donation in Palestines.

Sky high

2010-04-29T18:29:00.000-07:00

I just realised nowadays I only blog if I have the sudden feeling of loving myself and my life. Just like now. It always feels good when you regain confidence, and being motivated once again to accomplish at least something before you head to the fantasy world in your dream everynight.

So far my emotions since arriving at university have been sort of a roller coaster ride, with domination on the fall. But whatever that goes down will rise up again. Roller coaster could not keep on going down and never rise up again. It's now high time to prepare for the rise.

Tomorrow will be our Malaysian Society's Charity Night and i was nominated to sell myself by dyeing my hair and beard blue. Its a good cause and its for charity so i have accepted it. In return i have nominated a few of my friends for the charity too!

yee eng - room cleaner for a month,

nicole lim - blind date,

jamin lau - slave,

min hao - blind date

paul yung - wax legs

Cant wait for great fun tomorrow!!!!

Perfect start to Easter Holiday!

2010-03-23T22:25:00.000-07:00

Time to Enjoy some Easter Eggs!!!

After the disappointing football matches we had in Warwick Games, now I have finally started to get my mood back and swing all the cursed moods away.

I spent last monday and tuesday writing my politics essay and I was happy to complete them in time. But instead of handing it in immediately, I waited to pass it up on friday but i forgot to which means the dateline is over and I will have to pray hard they accept my essay this week. I finally received my score on Statistics B and i wasn't too sure whether to be happy or not. I only attended one lecture prior to the exam and scored an unimpressive 62%. I guess it's acceptable but nothing to be happy about. My next test result must be above 75%!!!!!!

So what have i done these few days???

20/3 Saturday Paintball + Dinner at Old Clearance + Movie Night (12 angry men )

21/3 Sunday 3miles Sports Relief Charity Run + Dota Night

22/3 Monday Badminton

Today Tuesday Basketball + Cycling + Pro Evolution Soccer

Life is getting pretty awesome at the moment and hope it carries on... And I cant wait for our Easter trip to South East England...

OMG I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!

''E''

2010-02-20T11:00:00.000-08:00

Sher Min singing 月亮代表我的心

I haven't lived my life so happily since two years ago. i've been lucky for 19 years of my life and I think everything happens for a reason. I'm super lucky for a reason. I shouldn't waste my life anymore!

For the past 2 weeks, I experienced satisfaction which made me extremely happy even though the some of the events went against me. I started on my intensive weight losing formula which only allows me to eat once a day during weekdays and the meal has to be half of what i normally consume in a meal. The formula was hard to execute in the first 3 days, but after that it worked perfectly well and i don't feel hungry anymore until 7pm everyday. ^_^ The results were more satisfying as i lost 2kg in the 1st week and i hope i lose 2kg consistently for a month. Its time to cut down on those fats. They are so unattractive and they have made me so lazy and unfit! BYE FATSS!!

2007

2009

Besides having a masterplan for losing weight, i've returned to sports which was once a field i dominated. Since 2 weeks ago i've played badminton, squash, football, futsal, table tennis and basketball. 2 more yet to be done on my list are to skip with paul n jog with yumin, samantha and ruizhe!! i cant wait for itt!!!! Besides all the above, i also have a daily exercise plan which at the moment consist of 4 sets of leg rises, pumping and sit ups... Yeah man i'm serious!

What's more satisfying? I almost successfully attended all my seminars and lectures. I've not attended 9am lectures since God knows when but this time, i made it!! Yes baby i'm aiming for aFirst Class honours in PPE!! YES I AM!! U guys must be thinking that's so not ka chuan right? Not if you know me for more than 2 years. haha.

On how much impact has ''make a change'' done to me? Anyone believes that i actually joined a part of a production called dikir barat which is not led by me and also doing backstage job too? Remember the principle that ka chuan only takes on leader position, presidency or captaincy because of my natural leading ability which everyone recognises? Yes at first it was really hard for me to make the decision but guess what? I'm very proud of myself! I'm making a change!

Harimau House Captain

I'm very satisfied with myself and i hope my change is consistent and so shape the next chapter of my life for the better. I'm no longer so materialistic but i still care a lot for my physical image. Forking out £10 for a shirt is something I've not done for 2 years. And it didn't feel that bad really. I'm still trying to get used to it cause spending £200 on clothing has become a habit and it's still very tempting. sigh...

my very first h&m shirt.

The only downside I'm facing is relationship and friendships. Friendship I'm facing serious breakdown with sher min, a friend who was once the most important. I was on the way to london and my phone played the song that she sang to me, ''yue liang dai biao wo de xing''. It reminded me of how close we were. I wonder whether she still remembers the song. We used to click so well we were literally siblings or maybe couple. But now, we haven't contacted each other for around 3months? She knows i hate losing friends, especially a soulmate. But i guess she has moved on. At the mean time I've discovered very nice friends who have lent me their precious ears and time... They are ooi yu min, siew woon chien, wong sue ann and lucinda lee. They are very caring people and i really appreciate them. Thank you...

Relationship wise the special one is not at all interested in me. But for that, I'm still happy. I love her, i hope she's well, it doesn't really matter if she's not my girlfriend. I don't demand her to get together with me or even hope that she will like me(even though i pray hard that she will). Its like u see a very beautiful diamond and you love it so much but u can't get it because you cant afford it. You are happy to have seen it... liked it... loved it... and happy that it's there... you dont specially intent to own it but just hoping that one day... one day... you could have the special thing that will make it yours...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

She's bringing me back!!

2010-02-19T06:44:00.000-08:00

I've recently found myself lost in the fast lane. Till this girl who appeared in my life, pulling me back on track for the first time in 3 years. She doesn't know how much she means to me, but i love her.

''Make a change'' is easy to say but its tough to act. It's now my new insporation. I'm ready. I'm honouring the change. The change that my love ones have been waiting for.

It's time to wave goodbye to the playboy n the extravagant spending lifestyle. I feel the energy. Welcome back Ka Chuan!

warwicckkkkk.....

2009-11-17T04:49:00.000-08:00

Its been blardy long since i last blogged. And also its my 1st blog since i arrived in the uk.

currently enjoying my life at university of warwick. studies are going on fine as most of the stuff i have covered during a-levels. hope term 2 wont start to get hectic. friends here are really good and life is good. still hoping life could get even better if i really get what i want. that's the main wish!! haha.

Going back to malaysia on 14th december. really cant wait for that. all the lovely food in malaysia and my close friends... gonna put on more weight i confirm!! but before that,,,, this coming saturday im joining the malaysian students association for the BICESTER VILLAGE TRIP... OMG i have been waiting for this trip for a long long time!! im gonna do my shopping that i missed for the past 3 months!!! So far i've only bought a new pair of football boots and a new sony ericsson phone. So yeah im desperate to shop!!

Pics Pics Pics...

happy family!
my new phoneee!!

new mercurial vapor!!

kai shen and i
yee engg and i

Eventful day

2009-09-09T10:11:00.000-07:00

Today was by far the most eventful day of the week. Finally had our 1st badminton session with my classmates after knowing them for at least 1 year.

Day started off perfectly with badminton session at Bangsar Sports Complex from 10am onwards. Court prices are really cheap and it was worth every cent. Kelvin Ong and I teamed up for the day against Marc and Ruthra. The final score being 5-1.

After badminton we came home to take shower before we left for wisma mca to collect my visa. as i was refused the previous week, i didnt go there with much confidence. but this time we did everything correctly, my visa was granted. then we headed off to the curve to meet kah yan and choh ying.

visited Maria's cafe for lunch and it was as good as always. this time i tried new starter - spicy NZ mussels... yummm yummm... so sorry today nobody brought camera and we didnt take any pics for the whole day.

We spent our time at Maria's chit-chatting until meeting up with Rica for dinner at jalan alor.. we ordered so much nice food and i cant wait for our next meal together. hehe. again no pics... sigh...

Next venue after jalan alor - poppy club. we went to poppy club to chill and we had great time chatting there while being surprised seeing tiki having dinner there with his parents. everyone must have felt awkward we forgot to invite him to join us. At poppy Choh Ying was the girl of the day as 90% of the conversations were related to her.

The last destination was an indian mamak which kahyan had bad experience with their air bali n with me drinking their tasteless teh ais. yet choh ying's stories were interesting enough to keep our heads off the lousy food.

Thanks to kelvin for driving yew weng and I home and we shall organise another badminton session before everyone goes away.

A Good 09/09/09

Gogogo

2009-09-05T11:54:00.000-07:00

As an encouragement to carynn to start blogging, i am going to start updating my blog.
This would be my 1st post to kick start a long wait since i last published a post.

Let us all welcome Carynn (Rynzz Rynzz) to the blogging world!

UNICEF

2009-04-07T06:05:00.001-07:00

Alright... its time to blog again!!!

Im now working on UNICEF project to raise fund for the needy children with sustainable donations!!! Meaning auto direct debit from the donor's credit card every month to help the children.

I've been donating to them for dunno how long and I think that I wasnt doing enough for them. So I'll be the one who ask more people to donate. Together we can make it for the children!!!

Go Ka Chuan!!!

Congratulations...

2008-12-16T09:11:00.000-08:00

congrats to my friend may ling who scored 99.2 for her enter score.

also congrats to kok keong, tik lik, yi shen and others for getting good enter score.

its kok keong's bday today so let us all wish him a big

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

GOING TO WAR!!!

2008-11-27T02:13:00.000-08:00

Wuahahahaha.... finally!!!

Conditional offer to study ppe at Warwick University. AABb...

Damn happy.

Huhu

Regrets...

2008-11-18T02:56:00.000-08:00

I do not regret things that I have done. But i only regret for not doing things I want to!

Ideas are worthless if not implemented. Imaginations are illusions without action.

Courage and determination is a thin line between success and failure.

I hope I have courage and determination.

what am i doing??

2008-11-12T16:45:00.000-08:00

Everyone is in the classroom doing their maths mock exam.... what am i doing??? taking pics with my laptop's webcam!! LOL

Good luck guys :)

tik tok...

2008-11-11T02:21:00.000-08:00

TO DO LIST :

MORAL PERSONAL ASSIGNMENT

+ MORAL GROUP ASSIGNMENT

+ MALAYSIAN STUDIES PERSONAL ASSIGNMENT

+ MALASIAN STUDIES GROUP ASSIGNMENT

+ HSBC YOUNG ENTERPRENEUR AWARD 08

+ LEO CLUB BOARD OF DIRECTORS

+ LEO CLUB CHRISTMAS PROJECTS

+ A-LEVELS MOCK EXAMS

+ TOASTMASTER CLUB SPEECHES

= DEAD!!!

SAD SAD SAD...

2008-11-10T02:51:00.000-08:00

Finally got one reply from the 4 universities i applied to. Got rejected by LSEEEE.... wthhh.... sigh please give me successful offerssss!! T.T

3 more to go.... come on universities.... you know you want me. sigh.

Doubt...

2008-11-06T02:10:00.000-08:00

Had my oxford thinking skills assessment yesterday at british council and i think i wrote pure rubbish in it. finally oxford preparation is over and thought i could get back to life.

Just realised that next year's exam timetable would not be hectic but there are still subjects that I need to improve in. Econs cannot rely on the teacher so I am forced to do my own studies. The teacher is my mentor too but I wonder whether she even knows that I went for the assessment test. currently picking up statistics 1 & 2 by having 1 on 1 tuition which cost rm125 per hour so that wont be a worry. accounting i could pick up in 2 weeks so there's no hurry. the only subject im worried now is further pure maths 1.

I am starting to doubt whether college is the right move for me because I feel that im wasting my time. I have got business ideas and I wouldnt fulfil my dream to be a successful businessman if i continue to waste my time at college.

Help...

2008-10-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

Finally i got the chance to blog.

Did I mention that I have joined Help Uni College? yeah i have!!

It was a stunning decision to quit studying at a private college in Cambrigde and return to home country to continue my a-levels at a 3rd class college. Well, to be honest, i really miss Cambridge it was a lovely city with lovely people. I remember hanging out with Nigerians like James, David Oguche and all the Chinese and other nationalities people. It was fun.

Well.. I wanted to go back but my priorities told me that I would gain more if I stayed in Malaysia and so I did. And so I did my oxford interview and now waiting for the thinking skills assessment. I have decided to join toastmasters club and leo club at the start of my semester. And now since my LAN subjects started today, I am gonna have a busy schedule. Lucky Malaysians who continue studies in Cambridge dont have to take LAN subjects. The college is so screwed up that LAN subjects are from 4-7pm monday to thursday. There goes my sports. T.T

Now Im taking Accounting, Maths, Further Maths and Economics. All my subjects are surrounded by figures which I find very very boring. Personally I think all the Maths teachers at Help college are very good but I do not have the slightest interest in it and thats why Im suffering at college now. 80% of my subjects are maths based. a 360 degree turn from the subjects I did at Cambridge which were Philosophy, Economics, Critical Thinking, History and Maths. 90% language based. Worse is that my current economics teacher has no teaching skills and lack of knowledge of the subject. She too full of herself at times and she would not accept answers from students because she thinks that she knows alot, but she doesnt. Thank GOD im good at this subject and I could do my self-study. I pity my friends who rely on her to score in exams. GOD BLESS!!!

Finally updated...

2008-10-01T08:12:00.001-07:00

havent updated my blog since i came back to malaysia. so sad now after 2 months i have added 7kg from 52kg to 59kg now.

played football finally and my performance was so poor at start but it got better. so many things happened in these two months i dont even have the time to blog. sigh.

hope can use this raya holiday to regain fitness and catch up with my work.

Happy Hari Raya to everyone !!

International Youth Leadership Conference - Day 1

2008-07-20T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up at 8:15am to find myself late for the prague tour. When I went down for breakfast, I was still in time as the girls delayed the trip till 9am. So, at 9am we departed for Charles Bridge with 2 Brits, 2 Pakistanese, 3 Indonesians, 1 Singaporean and 1 American.

The trip was fantastic and the places were beautiful. But as usual the girls were so keen on taking pictures so we had to stop every 5 steps forward to say ''cheesseee'' or for me I would say '' sexxxx''. ^_0

We walked on Charles Bridge and went to Prague Castle. The castle was huge and it was absolutely amazing. The queue into the castle was comparable to the length of the Great Wall of China. Ok... thats too much but anyway there was a long queue so the girls decided to go shopping instead. The guys?? how boring... we went to mcdonalds for lunch and went straight back to the hotel after lunch.

We registered at the conference venue at 5pm and the first activity started at night, meeting members of my group and discussing issues bout Kosovo's independence. Our night ended in a pub and I went to sleep at 2am.

Pragueeee...

2008-07-19T23:49:00.000-07:00

Finally I am in prague for the International Youth Leadership Conference. Was waiting for it since the start of my summer holiday and here it is. I am in Pragueee..
My parents dropped me off at East Midlands airport at 3pm this evening after visiting Warwick University. To be honest the uni looked much better than Oxford and cambridge uni but I still wish to get into Oxford uni to study PPE.

The flight to Prague took about 1 hour and 30mins and I reached Prague airport at around 9pm. I wandered around the airport to look for the conference people to escort me to the hotel but I saw nobody. In the end I decided to go to the hotel on my own. Knowing no Czech language, I found my way to the hotel thanks alot to the helpful bus driver.

I reached the hotel at 10pm and immediately I met the other only Malaysian attendee and other attendees from pakistan, united kingdom, singapore, pakistan, morocco, india and south korea. They were all so sociable. I joined the group of people who were already there and went online. When others who arrived later, they would just introduce themselves to everyone without fear, something which is uncommon in malaysia.

In the end I chatted with a singaporean and a brit until 2am and we have to wake up tomorrow at 7am to tour around famous places in prague before the conference starts.

Flat...

2008-07-15T23:48:00.000-07:00

Today was another boring day for me. Woke up late and left hotel late to check out our flats in kensington london. We agreed to meet the tenant at around 2-3pm but we arrived at 4pm. We had to delay the meeting to 7pm and we used the 3hours gap to visit the second flat. We walked and walked and walked and all we did was walking. We arrived at the flat and I went straight to the TV room and watched BBC news and Golden Balls. How jobless rite??

Actually Golden Balls was quite interesting and it was all about trust and greed. We left the flat 2 hours later and went back to the first flat which we spend another 1-2 hours and had chinese for dinner. how boring rite? didnt even feel like blogging such an unproductive day. sigh.
I was all flat when i got home and i went straight into bed like last night. --.-

2008-07-14T20:16:00.000-07:00

Today I spend my whole day shopping with my mom but bought nothing. Early in the morning we decided to stay for another night at this hotel because it was worth the price and we left to shop at the Harrods by noon. Harrods was a big big shopping centre with everything girls needed especially for designers stuff.

It was Harrods sales so my mom was very keen to go there and I went along. They had millions of clothes, hundred thousands of shoes and many more stuff to be bought. The very first thing that attracted me was their food department. You could find any food around the world there but the place was for rich people so the price was amazing too. After surfing around the area we went to De Beers jewellery shop to shop for some rings. I was so keen to get my mom to buy the £80000 3-carat diamond ring but she claimed it was too big for her hand so we went searching for a 2.78-carat ring which was just right for her hand but they didnt have any left so I think she would return to the shop next week to get it. But seriously the 3-carat diamond ring was so pretty you would melt looking at it.

After spending 2hours looking at diamonds we went to womenswear. My mom picked on a few to try but since they have closed down the two individual fitting rooms, they had only 1 large fitting room left which many people would go into and change. She didnt know at the time and I was so surprised that she came out 20seconds after entering the room because she couldnt bare changing in front of other ladies. I was laughing how the salesladies looked at my mom when my mom requested for individual fitting room. haha. ladies cant even let other ladies to look at them.
After clothes we shopped for handbags. The price for chanel bags have risen by like 30% compared to last year. My mom bought one last year at £900 and now it cost £1300 after discount. So my mom didnt buy any bags which actually suprised me.
The place was so big that we could only shop at several sections for several brands. When we left it was already 8pm and I think we only covered 30% of the whole shopping centre. I was so exhausted when I got back after standing for such long hours watching my mom shop. When to bed and slept immediately after i got home. zzz.

2008-07-13T20:15:00.000-07:00

Today I was supposed to wake up at 6:30am to prepare myself for my flight at 10am but instead I slept until 7:30am. Did everything very fast and rushed to the airport. Long queue at the airport for those using Malaysian Airlines and by the time we got to the gate it was already 9:50am, 10mins before the plane take off.

Couldnt sleep very well in the plane but still got away with 1 to 2 hours sleep. watched encarnation which was omg so so boring, spiderwick which its beginning was quite interesting and run fat boy run which was so funny but i couldnt finish it. I swear would recommend this movie to everyone it was so funny. Oh, just to benefit everyone, I would recommend this trick that my mom used if she's ever to travel in economy class. She would book the very back centre aisle seats and since people would demand for aisle seats and after the aisle seats are being filled up, they would automatically fill up middle seats from the front. So if we are lucky, there might not be enough people filling up the middle seats and we at the back would enjoy 4 seats for 2 people as we are sat at the aisle seats and the middle seats were empty. and we could take turns to actually sleep horizontally in the airplane.

At heathrow airport was terrible. Longest queue ever 1 1/2 hours to check in. so bored wanted to go online but they charged for usage, unlike in klia airport which was free. we got there in the afternoon but by the time we got out it was already night time. And what was great was that we havent booked any hotels yet. I had to call my sister to book us a hotel if not we would have to sleep at the airport. But luckily we got a nice hotel near Queensway and we spent our 1st night there.

Lastminute.com

2008-07-12T20:11:00.000-07:00

Gonna leave for London soon and still havent started packing and now is already 11:45pm. Parents are still out for dinner and I wonder when they would be back. Worse is that my grandfather, uncle and cousins arrived and I have to serve them soon. Good thing is that I get to meet my grandfather. sigh.

This morning I went to Midvalley to meet Tania and my NZ friend quin leng. They were still fine as usual and I passed them my Leo project document. Hope they could manage it for me while I am away for my Euro trip.

I met my parents at 2pm at Dragon-i where we had our lovely siew long pau and dumplings. I swear their siew long paus were really top class and everyone should give it a go. well at least not for Muslims sorry because it contains pork. Didnt do much in Midvalley besides being hung up-side-down in the centre court just to try out some new sporting EQs.

Went home and had a nice chat with sher min and ate my delicious eel and nandos sauce-marinated-chicken. Yummy.... and here i am typing this blog. Leaving tomorrow and coming back on 1st aug. Looking forward to my Prague conference. :-)

Outing with Penny...

2008-06-28T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Midvalley to see penny for one last time before she leaves for aussie, a place i hate the most because my love ones are there and are going there too. I do not understand what's so good bout aussie since the place is like rojak and their education besides for dentistry isnt any good too.

I arrived at Midvalley at 10:15am, 15mins later than promised because I didnt know that I had to wait so long for the komuter to arrive and it moved at a snail speed. I was surprised to see sher min at the philosophy section in MPH and I stood behind her for 10mins before her noticing my existence as my phone rang. We went around to hunt for a farewell gift for penny and again we bought penny accessory from topshop.

After that her boyfriend was already outside topshop waiting for her. I left the couple to walk on their own and I went to the Gardens to explore Chanel but to receive a call from penny saying that she has reached Midvalley and I had to walk back without doing anything. Penny purposely wore heels which made her taller than me. We had lunch and went to watch Made of Honours. I found some similarities in the movie that I hope would not happen to me. really really hope so.
After the movie penny, lilien and I went window shopping and i bought a lancome mascara as a birthday gift for ai nee. when sher min came, I left with her to the exhibition centre to play some games which she suck so much at. At around 6:30pm we left midvalley to penny's house. her house was so comfortable and phoebe ly was there too. After food we chatted and took pictures too. Shameless sher min invited herself to take picture with us and she really suck at posing. haha

Goodbye penny we are gonna miss you. Enjoy yourself in aussie stop peeking at topless guys.

Happy ending ^_^

2008-06-27T23:32:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Cempaka Cheras to watch the Imovie competition and to play football with my cempaka footballers. I arrived the school at 8:30am and had a small chat with En.Nizan. After walking around the school for an hour En.Hemi told me that the Imovie screening was cancelled because Dr.Rizal just came back from overseas yesterday. That was a bad enough start for the day and what made it worse was that I received an sms from ai nee saying that she would not be able to watch a movie with me if she had no transport back home.

However, I remained optimistic and finally the good news came at around 11:30am and I went on to pick her but to realise that both my driver and I didnt know the place so we kept looking and looking for her college. Until when we found UCSI college, it wasnt where she was studying as there were 2 of them, the new and the old one. I think she was becoming impatient as her tone of voice changed. But anyway, we got her finally and she looked gorgeous.

We went to leisure mall to watch a crappy movie called Wanted. How can someone bend a bullet like Beckham's freekick? The speed of the bullet is just too fast to be affected by the swerve of the gun. The last part was most ridiculous. The girl shot a bullet which went through a think 5 ppls' heads standing in a circle. What a brilliant idea by a brilliant director. Sigh.

After the movie ai nee was indecisive of whether to go home by taxi and get scolded or to follow me to school and put the question of how to go home behind the mind for at least that moment. I forced her to follow me to cempaka school and she did. haha. the taxi driver who took us there was the funniest man i have ever met. I swear he would be the next Stephen Chow.

Football at cempaka was disappointing. I played very badly, one of the worse performances in my life. I was quite surprised to see Jon to improve so much. He played so much better than me. While I was playing football ai nee was doing her college homework in the canteen and after I finished bathing, we went to the guardhouse to get transport home. At first we thought we would never go back home as there were no taxis willing to come to this area until ai nee's coincidental plan to get derek to drive us to leisure mall for dinner and wait for simon lim to get us to kok keong's mom and hang around at kok keong's house until we get transport back home.

At kok keong's house we ate dinner and sang karaoke. Ai nee went back at 10:15pm when her cousin sister was free to pick her up and I still couldnt get any transport home so I decided to stay overnight. Simon was so shameless as he asked kok keong's mom to send her home rather than getting own transport. Anyway spending time with ai nee was fun and i hope could spend more time with her next time.

pic with ai nee :)

Second lesson..

2008-06-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

I had my second driving lesson today. Today was not at BSC but at the PJ safety driving school. Today's lesson was to park the car at the slope - slope parking. lol.

Balancing was tough at the slope. Stupid kancil gave out so much noise when I stepped on the accelerator and the engine died quite a few times because i estimated the speed of the car by the noise of the car when i stepped on the accelerator which caused the car to fall backwards. Today's lesson wasnt good too and I dont think im gonna pass my driving test and get my licence. sigh T.T

First lesson

2008-06-24T23:32:00.000-07:00

Finally i have started my first driving lesson after passing my undang for more than a year. Hope to get my driving licence by next month so that i could spend 2 years of driving probation in uk without actually driving on the road.

Today my mom and I rushed to the post office to renew my L licence as it expired like dunno how long ago. After that we went to Chyna at KL Hilton for dim sum. I swear to God their dim sum are so damn delicious. Like Sher min would say, it feel like you're having orgasm when you slowly bite on the siew mie, chew it and shallow it.

We managed to get home by 3pm and the driving instuctor came to the house to take me for driving lessons. My first lesson was at Bangsar Sports Complex that area. I didnt understand what the clutch was all about and the engine went dead for like more than 10 times. sigh.
Next lesson will be on this coming thursday. Hope to do a better job on that day.

Nothing Special...

2008-06-23T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today was my 3rd day in Malaysia and was so far the most boring day yet. I did virtually nothing today besides counting how many days left I would be in Malaysia before leaving. The calculation came up to 20days left as I would be leaving on 13th july to London. Sigh...

Day I have been waiting for...

2008-06-22T23:31:00.000-07:00

Again I have defeated the possibility of getting jet-lag owing to an organise in-flight timetable. Shao nian stayed overnight and we both woke up at 7am which was 1 hour earlier than planned. We went looking for food and decided to swim at around 8am. I have graduated from baby pool but still not good enough to swim at the other end which was about 8 feet deep. We got out from the pool an hour or an hour half later and started waiting for sher min's arrival. As usual that girl arrived 1 hour later than promised at 11am. Her hair was much shorter than it used to be and I thought that she looked better with longer hair. Anyway she didn't even give me a hug eventhough we were apart for 6 months.

Later on we decided to go to Midvalley to eat at Dragon-i and meet Syed after that because he couldn't eat food in Dragon-i as they contained pork. Yummy.... I love the siew long paus there. So delicious. After lunch sher min pretended to line up to get tickets for the movie Get Smart but after 1minute or less she ran away to top-shop to do her shopping and until when the movie started, we still had to wait for her to pass her the movie tickets. very smart of her...

Get Smart was quite alright but the story wasn't that great. Sher min and I sent off Syed and Shao nian before returning home. The best coincidence was I found out that my best friends' names all had an initial ''S''. Like 'S'her min... 'S'hao nian... 'S'yed... and 'S'umugan.

When we returned home Sher min and I were too tired and we dozed off immediately in 2 different beds in the same room. What a shame of me..... I missed out the chance to do what all guys would want to do with a girl. Sigh...

Here are the pics...

at dragon-i

me sleeping.

these happened in sequence.

shameless pic of sher min but too bad she's a bad poser.

Its here...

2008-06-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

Finally the day that i have been waiting for arrived. Here I am... Malaysia. Cant express my words of love towards this land but here I am, waiting for the moments of joy.
Took the MAS boeing 747 back to Malaysia. The 12hour flight felt like it was just a 12minute flight owing to wan-ling's wonderful company. we had fun in the aeroplane and took loads of pictures too. to avoid getting jet-lag, i set myself on Malaysian time and slept accordingly to my bed time hours. i slept in the first 5 hours and had fun talking, eating, watching movies and webcaming in the remaining 7 hours. the plane reached 30mins earlier than predicted time but we still had to wait for a long time till we are able to reclaim our luggage.

My parents didnt come to the airport so I took the express train to KL central and shao nian was already there waiting for me for 4hours. My parents came soon afterwards and the first words my mom uttered out were : OMG you're so skinny bla bla bla...

We went home immediately and had homemade chicken rice for dinner. Shao nian stayed overnight and I was happy to return home.

Pics taken in the plane.

Quite satisfied with these pics. Travelling with friends really make a difference.

Hell is over!

2008-06-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

Finally my exams finished. now is the time to play. I stated a new game recently - Fiesta. It is quite fun but i doubt i will be able to play it very often once I return to Malaysia.

My final exam paper was Core maths 4 and I think I did quite well. Hope that will compensate my core maths 3 because i really screwed it up. Finally the exam is over today. After the exam we went to nando's for a nice lunch and after that played bowling and pool. surprisingly bowling was much cheaper than in malaysia. it cost like only £5 for 3 games. very good price. got 1st among my friends for scoring 100 but its still so low. i wanna break my record of 129 points.

Time passed so fast. The 2nd time i looked at my watch it was already 8:30pm. 9 days left till i step on malaysia's ground. just cant wait for it to come.

My day...

2008-05-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

Saturday today so was supposed to do my philosophy revision but then i slept till about 3pm so when i woke up didnt have mood to study. then after that was chatting with sher min and we webcamed. thanks to the invention of webcams coz eventhought we were 11000km apart we could still see each other. havent seen her for ages so i started laughing myself off when i saw her for no reasons.

we chatted, we laughed, we exercised and I said hi to her family members. Her hair was shorter than it used to be and she looked good in Arsenal jersey. well, everyone looks good in Arsenal jersey. And i was so unlucky in picking the 1st, 2nd or the 3rd drawers to take a deep look of what she had inside. I had 2 chances but i still missed out the drawer that she kept all her ''treasure''. Sigh.

this' sher min's blurrr look.

i think we chatted for around 2 hours and i just couldnt stop showing offf my long curvy eyelashes that she envies so much. haha. Eventhough in the end we didnt have many topics left to chat about and eventually she went to bed, I could still feel that our friedship is crystal solid. Hope that our plan to meet on 22nd june (1 day after i arrive kl) will succeed and we can go for lunch or dinner or even shop in topshop. haha.

After the chat i played board games with my friends and teacher but because my mood became so good after the chat that i owned them to the max. Was so happy after that. 2nd win in a row.

Counting down.... 34 days ---> malaysia

IM GOING TO PRAGUE!!!

2008-05-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

My first achievement of the year~~~~ im so so so delighted that i got into such competitive conference unlike those no-use conferences available everywhere. i think i will be going there czech republic alone because my parents would be having holiday in europe while the conference is going on. I will so appreciate this chance and learn all that will be taught. hope i wont disappoint myself.

btw im really really happy.

13.05.2008

Dear Tan Ka Chuan,

Congratulations, you have been accepted to attend the 16th International Youth Leadership Conference in Prague, July 20th – 25th, 2008.

As you know, the conference will consist of a number of inter-related activities focusing on leadership skills, including simulations of international organizations that promote peace and broadening social interaction. It is an unparalleled learning cross-cultural experience that you will share with approximately 100 university students from an average of 35 countries.

The next step for you is to officially confirm your attendance. We will reserve your place for 4 weeks; however, if we have not received your confirmation at this time we may offer your place to the next available applicant.

Fun fun fun...

2008-05-12T23:53:00.000-07:00

Played cricket for the first time in my life. it was quite fun though and i think im quite addicted to it now. I have only seen cricket being played in Malaysia once. But i think i will still stick to football coz its just the best sporting game ever invented.

Had history exam this morning and if only i had 5 more minutes i could finish the essays with stronger conclusions which could gain me a few more marks. i doubt that i will score 57/60 for unit 3 but i gave my best shot. so eventhough im worried bout oxford but then i will be happy too if my results disappoint me cause i have tried.

and today is my father's birthday so wish him a happy birthday here. ^_^
i wonder how parents celebrate their birthdays when all their children are studying abroad. well i think its an experience that i would have to face eventually.

43 days ---> malaysia

2008-05-08T21:16:00.000-07:00

I started counting down today. 43 days left. I hope its a good number because one of my houses number is 43. I swear when i get back to Malaysia I will surely visit 3jc for its wonderful curry noodles then kl hilton dim sum at chyna then japanese buffet at pj hilton and dragon i with sher min. i just cant wait till i get back. yeahhhhh, 434343434343434343 dayssssss....................

Just now I suddenly felt like drinking milk. Then i went to search for milk in the fridge but i wonder why it was frozen. So i had to pressed so hard to squeeze a little by little and finally i had half a cup of milk. Then after that I left it on the table unattended and continued writing my essay to be sent to prague, czech republic. Then when i slided my laptop onto the table without realising the cup there, it just knocked the cup off. And my precious £1 milk went diving down onto the floor. sigh my wasted effort. it fell on carpet sumore. how to clean laaaa???

Frozen milk

Me squeezing milk out...

And this is what annoyed me... :(

Sigh... im gonna be so dead next week. AS history unit 3 on monday 9am. tuesday mock exams 6 60mins papers. that is a total of 6hours of exams per day. gosh am i still gonna be alive after that? wed 5hours of mock exams... its gonna drive me insane!

Look at all the 60s...

dead dates.

Clock is ticking....

2008-04-29T14:32:00.000-07:00

This took me 2hours to complete.

Didnt go to college today coz couldnt wake up and i needed to finish my history as the exam will be held in 12 days time. I still need one full day to finish the whole syllabus but the clock is ticking faster and faster. until now i havent done any of the past year papers yet. how to score?

Yesterday was called for an interview with the principal. He said my performance could only get me into top10 universities but not top 2 that i wanna go to. He also said im one of the fortunate people who could score without much revision and my performance showed that i didnt even put in any hard work and i must change now. But the point is how la? Even native ppl couldnt score A in philosophy how do they expect me to? its really damn tough ok? i did try to understand but i could only grasp the basics but not the more complicated ones.

My future rely upon the next 50days and i hope miracles would come by. T.T

God blessssss me. ^_^

why cant everyday be so productive??

2008-04-26T16:59:00.000-07:00

Things i have done today.

9-11am : critical thinking class

11am-1pm : searching for saloon and had a haircut

1pm-2pm : chatting on msn + lunch

2pm-5pm : played football

5pm-6pm : bathe and prepared for formal hall

6pm-7pm : walked to magdalene college cambridge for formal hall

7pm-9pm : formal hall (dinner)

9pm-10pm : walked home

10pm-1am : on9 + blogging

today's haircut was cheaper than expected. cost about £15 compared to what i thought to be around £20-£30. The pictures are alyssa and i before and after my haircut. by the way alyssa is the girl who scored like 18A1? who broke the malaysian record 2 years ago.

before after

see the difference? haha.. very obvious lol. anyway i tell you, the angmo(s) are super weird. today appeared to be the hotest day in uk in 7months and the Sun was so hot and so bright. These ppl dunno where they appeared from and all of a sudden they were all over parkers piece field which was a hassle because we had to be careful not to hit them while shooting. sigh. Some were half naked lying down reading books, some slept and some were doing things that couples do. i mean not the extreme one but kissing la.

december 07

26th april 08

so right i went to the so-called formal hall which is a formal dinner among oxford and cambridge students and sometimes with the Dons or important ppl who would give speeches. but this one that i got invited to wasnt the special one so nobody gave any speeches. the people who went were all adults. not that im not but they are like the youngest was 24 excluding me which im only 18. most of them were either doing their PhDs and/or working.

while all the mainland chinese people were chatting about their home country i was chatting with a very cheerful Polish guy named Jacek. He's already 33 but still very active and has a 2 year old daugther but obviously he didnt bring her to the dinner. We chatted about work, football, table tennis, life, history, Poland and about his future to work here or to go back to Poland. And yeah he was a nice chap. In between i chatted with a 40+ chinese psychologist who is currently doing a student research until end of the year. Surprisingly he spoke good english. After the dinner we took a group picture.

AND my point is....... SPOT ME!!!

Good luck... ^_^

Approaching the Deadliest...

2008-04-25T17:12:00.001-07:00

As usual... time flies without our concern. We are now entering the 2nd third period of 2008 which signifies how little time i have left until my final exams. 17days left till my AS level examinations start. I wish i had spent my time more wisely so i wouldnt have to be worried bout it now. My exam time table goes on as follows:

12th May - History Unit 3 (Stalinist Russia)

23th May - Philosophy Unit 1 (epistemology), Unit 2 (Ethics), Unit 3 (Plato : The Republic)

2th June - Core Maths Unit 1 & 2
History Unit 1 (Russian Revolution), Unit 2 (Germany : Weimar Republic)

4th June - Economics Unit 1 (how market works), Unit 2 (why market fails),
Unit 3 (managing the economy)

6th June - Core Maths Unit 3

12th June - Core Maths Unit 4

The pressure is starting to set in and i noticed the transition of mentality from tidak-apa-banyak-masa-lagi to hell-no-please-postpone-the-exam-please-God-please among my friends. And now im already getting nervous too.

After all these exams would be busy doing my UCAS application to Oxford, Durham, Warwick for PPE course and UCL for social sciences. Still considering whether to apply to US unis such as Yale uni and Pennslyvania uni for social sciences ; Harvard and Stanford unis for Business.

sigh my 18th year alive isnt the year that i could enjoy the most but the year that would matter the most in terms of my future career. i always thought 18 should be a special year but now only i realised that i didnt even celebrate chinese new year or received any angpaus. and also it turned out to be the only year that i didnt blow a candle nor eaten a cake for my birthday. A thousand thanks to those who were with me during my birthday and those who remembered and wished me happy birthday. All of you made my life brighter in a year like this.

So envy those couples who work together, study together and support each other at a vital time like this. I wish the break-up came later in the year so i could still have her support now rather than it happening even before this year had started. sigh. over is over.

E> -________- <3

Exhausted...

2008-04-12T21:31:00.000-07:00

today i went for a table tennis tournament organised by cambridge chinese association which was held at Churchill college cambridge. I didnt know how to get there so I spent about 2hours getting there but thank god i wasnt late for my match. the college is located in the outskirt of cambridge and therefore would normally take about 1hour walking distance rather than 2.

as expected it was organised by the cambridge chinese association so they were all chinese expect for one englishman who came in the afternoon to take part in the men singles. women singles started first and followed by mixed doubles which i took part in with a lady that i met for the first time. she's doing her 2nd master degree now in cambridge and her first master was in edinburgh. we did quite well and went all the way into the finals which would be played tomorrow.

In the afternoon/evening we had men singles which i took part in. I went all the way through to the finals but was badly beaten and in the end got only a second place. the players were all university students and most of them were born in 1984.

i didnt feel very happy about the defeat and decided to walk about 40mins to parkers piece to play football for only 15mins. sigh...

tomorrow will be the finals which means that its my second chance to clinch the title. i hope i wont make any mistakes and win the match to mark another milestone in my life.

Liverpool vs Arsenal Champions League

2008-04-09T10:53:00.000-07:00

8th april 7:45pm
Liverpool vs Arsenal
Final score : liverpool 4 - 2 arsenal
agg : liverpool 5 - 3 arsenal

When i came back from college today at about 6pm i had around 10 chatboxes on msn and all of them were about arsenal's defeat to liverpool. really unbelievable all of them were about that match.

I didnt watch the whole match but only the highlights. I think both team played really well and in the end it was liverpool that got on the upper hand. It was a good game indeed. 2 out of 10 of the chatboxes were liverpool fans and they all didnt boost around but gave credit to arsenal for their young players such as fabregas and diaby, showed sympathy and said try again next year.

i had a chat with aidan yesterday night about the match and he didnt bother to boost around too and thought that arsenal were great but liverpool were so much better in anfield that night. same was to my college friend who wished arsenal good luck in defeating man utd in epl and be the champions.

out of the 10 chatboxes 8 were arsenal fans. obviously they were really sad for the defeat but some reacted very unprofessionally by saying that liverpool cheated as there was no foul on the liverpool player and there was to be no penalty. and some were angry and said it was a poor match and something else.

my point is... football is a very random game. there's no guarentee win nor lose. there's only a stronger or weaker side on the particular day. if we are defeated by an opposition who post out a very good display, there shouldnt be anyone making any fuss despite being defeated. however if you are defeated through a cheat like rooney dived and got a penalty against arsenal 2 seasons ago, that i can understand. but this match against liverpool i must say we have no reason to act unprofessionally unless if you are really unprofessional.

Turning 18 !!

2008-03-25T11:32:00.000-07:00

today, as planned, i went to london with my friends to hang around and meet wan-ling and daniel. i reached london at about 10:30am and went to niketown with daniel. there's this nikeid thingy which allows you to design your own football boots such as the colour you want and you and also put your name and number on it. damn cool and i was so tempted to make one for myself. sigh. no budget...

later on we walked around oxford street and china town until daniel kept asking for food and stopped at a chinese restaurant for our 1st lunch. i had roast pork rice which cost £5.50. the service was terrible.

at around 2:30pm that slowpoke wan-ling finally arrived with two friends - amanda and kompol (thai). so then we had our 2nd lunch in this jap restaurant which was better than the chinese restaurant. we all had almost the same food but with different ingredients.

so after our 2nd lunch we went to shop again until night. i didnt plan to stay overnight but i was too tired to go to london again the next day so i stayed with wan-ling and her friends. we played cards till around 2am and we went to bed.

that was how i celebrated my 18th birthday. it was fun hanging around with friends and spending time together. oh and in return wan-ling will have me celebrating her birthday on 14th june in london.

to all those who have wished me happy birthday i thank you. hope all of you have a brilliant year ahead.

^_^

Easter Holiday...

2008-03-20T11:20:00.000-07:00

Easter holiday started today after our final lesson today.

we went to nando's straight after lesson and sat there till 8:30pm playing some chinese game and eating. after that watched 10000bc which i would rate as less than half a star. my goodness it was terrible. i would recommend everyone not to watch it. waste of money £7.30. equivalent to rm50 for a movie. sigh.

Success or Failure?

2008-03-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

I swear if i fail to get into oxford for PPE course i will live my life as a failure in acadamic arena.

so the only possible thing to happen is that i get admitted into oxford for PPE because im ka chuan and there's nothing that i cant possibly do. if not im really a failure!!

Good or Bad?

2008-03-17T03:26:00.000-07:00

I have been dreaming alot lately. some related to issues happening at the moment and some are so weird that i couldn't understand. and i duno why!

next week is easter holiday. think i will be meeting wan ling and daniel in london.

Happy birthday to Ai Nee...

2008-03-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

its 15th march today which is Ai nee's birthday. so sad couldnt celebrate her 18th birthday with her cause im still in uk.

wish you the happiest birthday you have ever had. im not there for u so i have decided to get you a nice present which will be with you soon!

once again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Malaysia...

2008-03-06T10:26:00.000-08:00

march has just begun. it felt so long since i landed in uk only 2 months ago. the very next time that i would step on malaysia would be in july. by the time some of year 11s this year would be gone to pursue their studies in australia.

i miss malaysian food, all the shopping malls and my friends. im definitely gonna eat so much until im all rounded when i return to malaysia. gonna shop in every shopping centres and contact all the friends i know and visit those who are really really important to me.

SECOND TRY

2008-02-15T05:53:00.000-08:00

TODAY WHEN I WOKE UP,
I FELT THE KISS THE ON MY CHEEK,
I KNEW THAT YOU CAME TO ME.
I KNEW THAT YOU STILL LOVE ME,
WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL THE WHILE?
I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR YOUR MARK,
EVERY CORNER IN THE WORLD,
JUST TO GET YOU BACK HOME.
WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?

PLEASE COME HOME TO ME MY HONEY!
IM LOST IN A WORLD WITHOUT YOU.
PLEASE COME HOME WITH ME MY HONEY!
WE WOULD MAKE IT TOGETHER!
SO PLEASE COME HOME WITH ME MY HONEY!

THE MOMENTS OF SORROW FELT SO LONG,
I NEED YOU BACK TO ME,
WITHOUT YOU I COULD NEVER DO IT,
WITHOUT YOUR LOVE I COULD NEVER LIVE.
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
COME BACK TO ME MY BABY!

I MISS YOU

2008-01-26T13:35:00.000-08:00

TONIGHT I COULDNT SLEEP AGAIN,
I THINK I MUST BE THINKING OF YOU.
SINCE YOU CAME TO MY LIFE,
I HAD NO OTHER WISHES THAN TO LOVE YOU FOREVER,
AND TO BE TOGETHER WITH YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS THAT EASY,
THE WORLD IS MORE COMPLICATED THAN WE KNEW...
AND OFTENLY MORE UNPREDICTABLE THAN WE THOUGHT...
WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT,
YOU HAVE CHOSEN TO GO FOR THE BETTER.

I STILL REMEMBER,
THE HAPPY MOMENTS THAT WE WENT THROUGH,
THE SWEET FACE OF YOURS,
THE KISSES ON MY LIPS,
AND THE ALL THE LOVE THAT WE HAD FOR EACH OTHER.

I STARTED ASKING MYSELF :
WHATS THE POINT OF REMEMBERING THE PAST WHEN IT DOESNT EXIST ANYMORE?ONLY ONE ANSWER CAME TO MY MIND,
I STILL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

FOR ALL THE REASONS WHY WE GOT TOGETHER,
FOR ALL THE HAPPY MOMENTS THAT WE SPENT TOGETHER,
AND FOR ALL THE LOVE THAT WE HAD FOR EACH OTHER,
IS THERE NO OTHER CHOICE THAN TO LEAVE ME?

FOR NOW,
I COULD ONLY LOOK UP AT THE SKY,
WANDER AT THE STARS ALONE,
THINKING OF YOU,
AND HOPING THAT YOU WOULD RETURN TO ME AGAIN.

On My Own...

2008-01-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

i did not sleep well at all last night. woke up at 7am and prepared for my trip back to england. after final checks then went to the airport alone. i wasnt very lost but was just unsure bout what to do because KLIA was so much bigger than London Heathrow Airport. checked in at 9am for my 12pm flight. it was quite funny in the airport. i was hoping that the 3 hours were actually shorter but when i knew i had not enough time to give everyone wishes, i hoped it was actually longer. sigh.

this trip would be the longest trip ever away from home and i hoped that i would not miss my friends too much so that i could stay strong on my own in England. the next time i would be seeing them would be in july. T.T

i was given seat 42B in the plane but there was this malaysian couple who were studying in UCL did not get to sit together so i did them a favour by swapping seats with them. Being a single is not the best ever thing to happen in the world especially when the people you see are deeply in love with their partners. sigh.

i didnt do anything much in the plane. watched rush hour 3 for the third time, gameplan which i thought was very well done and the nannies' diaries which i thought was total crap. the flight was a 13hours flight so i spent most of the time planning what to do when i get back to england rather than sleeping. I hope i could meet more good friends this year! and i'll have to work hard to get 6As in my AS level.

Busy Night

2008-01-06T23:54:00.000-08:00

tonight was a sleepless night. it was also the my last night in malaysia till july. we went shopping in klcc in the day until 10pm. so when i reached home i had to do last minute packing. Before that i called sher min and chatted about her day. she had this audition during the day and i think it turned out to be good. so hope that her band could get a contract and release big hits albums. haha.

started packing at about 11:30pm. finished packing at about 2am. after that i felt abit lonely and went on to call ai nee eventhough it was late. she was already half asleep so we smsed instead. i think i let her sleep at about 4am. so sorry to her. i didnt go to sleep after that, in fact, i was busy smsing my friends and wished them all the best till about 5:30am then i went to sleep.
woke up 30mins later to read tania's reply and slept again till 7:30am.

Legend Wannabe

2008-01-04T02:08:00.000-08:00

today i went back to cempaka school to see my friends and to play football. I reached there at 1:10pm and it was their lunch time. so met most of my friends there. it was only 5months since i last saw them but most of them changed alot. was greeted by most of them but i prefered hugs. especially like those from cindy and lini. love their hugs. ohya diana gave me a hug too. ^_^
when they went back to their classes i went around the school to look for all my former teachers but was disappointed to find out that most of them had left. so i went to have a chat with ms.michelle. she's still alright and i was asked to give some motivations to the year 11 this year and offer them advises and help so that they do well in their IGCSE. its good to hear that janice and zechariah are doing extremely well. the people i need to speak to are cindy, penny and adam.

at about 3:30pm everyone gathered and was preparing to play football but i took my sweet time seeing and talking to my friends. asked ru sheng to play football but he didnt bring his eqs and he had to go back early. then after that saw cindy and lini again. and this time i managed to get subash to take a picture for us. after that got hugs from them again before i went for football.
i was playing like a donkey today. just simply too weak to be ka chuan. couldnt even get a shot on target. sigh. after everyone left aidan, vikram, yeung fwu, jonathan, vinsen, brian and i practised free kicks. free kicks with my right foot were still average but right foot remained strong. curled most of my left foot free kicks into the top left corner of the goal. looked as if i was left leg david beckham. actually they were quite perfectly taken. im still admiring them in my mind. lol.

i was given the title legend by some of my friends. haha. and i really hope that i am one. lol. *shameless*.

First Day of 2008 !!!

2008-01-01T14:13:00.000-08:00

today went to times square with kok keong, simon, syed, wan ling and ee zeen. we reached there as early as 10am and went to Mcdonald's for breakfast. We all had simple breakfast but we were sitting there chatting till 12pm. then kok keong went to meet his friend and syed went back home. so it was only simon, ee zeen and i. went to the times bookstore for a while then we went to starbucks for some coffee. and again we sat there chatting bout everything till 3:30pm. after that we shopped abit then went to japanese restaurant for lunch at 4pm. while eating we continued our nvr-finished-conversations till 5:15pm. after we went back to shop. at around 5:30 everyone had to leave so we headed our own ways back. i followed wan ling to KL Central and she went to KLCC to meet her parents and i went back home by taxi.

I ate maggi noodles for dinner because my parents went to Seremban for dinner and my sister was in Midvalley. When they came back we watched Ratatouille. And that was the last thing that ended my 1st day of 2008.

08 Countdown !!!

2007-12-31T14:09:00.000-08:00

today was the last day of 2007. i woke up at about 12pm and went for lunch at Jaya 33. Lunch was good and when we reached home it was about 3pm. And about 4pm only i told my mom i had plans with my friends so i went out by LRT rather than the driver taking me to where i wanted to go. Before reaching LRT station syed called me and i said i was going to sg.wang for countdown so he suggested that i go to setiawangsa to meet him then go to pavillion. i did that but then no taxis wanted to take us to pavillion so we were forced to take LRT to KLCC then take taxi to Pavillion. That stupid taxi driver said it was very jam and charged us rm12 but the ride was only 2minutes.

At pavillion we met xin yin and wei kit. woohoo what a sweet couple. then after that we met up with kok keong, simon, yang ming and friends then after that wan ling and ee zeen. we were so stupid walking round and round just to decide where to have dinner. i think it took us about 30minutes till we decided to eat in a thai restaurant. the food was so so only but the price was so expensive. uk price!! wan ling's friend quin lane joined us for dinner but she only had a drink. and i think syed is interestedin her. haha...

after food we went searching for tania as she was abit late and the place was crowded already. we waited 1 hour for tania and yang ming to purchase the sprays. at last we got the sprays but we didnt get tania. so we started the spray wall till it was beginning to rain then we went to wan ling's rented apartment. came back out at about 11:45pm and still had 5minutes spare for countdown. everything at bintang walk was so stupid. they only played chinese songs and even the countdown was in cantonese. wth. this is not chinese new year. its a new year for everyone. swt.

fireworks were shot directly above us and i was abit scared that the bits of the fireworks would fall on me. but thank god it didnt happen. after the celebration we went back to wan ling's apartment and we met tania just outside times square. so we all had fun playing big 2 + eating maggi cups till 2am in the morning.

Anyway HAPPY 2008 to everyone!!!

Counting down - 10 days left !!!

2007-12-28T11:48:00.000-08:00

today went to sunway pyramid with my sister. i went there to meet sher min and my sister went there to have lunch with her boyfriend. we reached there about 11:30am. after walking alone for about 30mins, benjamin from cempaka international suddenly bumped into me. lol. he was with ex cempakan leon and he kept complaining that there was nothing much to do in sunway pyramid so i suggested to go to the arcade. we spent quite some time there playing stupid video games then went to ice skating there for a nice view to look at the girls. lol. haha we looked quite stupid there.

until 2:30pm then sher min arrived. we went straight to dragon-i for lunch. benjamin and leon left us. sher min was complaining that i ordered too much and nobody was going to finish the food but i didnt care and ordered as i liked. haha. she's eating too little and must get enough nutrients to grow. i think she should grow in other places rather than to grow in height. she's tall enough d or not i wont be able to go out with her if she wears heels.

today was one of the few times that she was lazy to shop due to girl's problem so she only bought 1 dress. at about 4pm we went home. we had nothing much to do at home. we played big 2, played chess and played with my webcam. my god i couldnt believe that she beat me in chess due to my very very careless mistake. sigh... she got lucky... thats why.

at about 7:30pm we went to jaya 33 in PJ for dinner but it was fully booked due to wedding dinner. So we had to try our luck in bangsar village 2's Reunion. unfortunately it was full too so we went to chatterzbox. after ordering food we went to zara. i was so astonished that she took less than 10mins to choose a top, tried it and bought it. i think it all took 8-9mins. so my lesson was girls could do things really very fast if they wanted to.

sher min's friend farah was very punctual as she arrieved at 10pm which was what she told sher min. after sher min left i continued playing mahjong with my parents. won a total of rm35. huhu.

this is sher min cleaning my shoe...

this is us.

GOLDEN COMPASS, then I AM LEGEND

2007-12-27T11:40:00.000-08:00

today went to the curve for 2 movies. 1st movie was at 1pm - Golden Compass. I think it was a very good movie. the showed quite a number of places in oxford in the beginning of the movie. most of the places that i have been to in oxford and im praying that i could get into oxford university 2 years later. the demons which are also humans' souls are so cute. and the best was the ice bear. the fighting was good. in a whole it was very well done. 9/10 is what i would rate it.

I AM LEGEND was at 5pm. and it was a very good movie too. it made sense in its own way. scary scenes were really frightening. i would advise that ppl with heart attack problem do not watch it. its a super exciting movie. some scenes were depressing too. sigh... those were very sad. anyway im looking forward to alvin & chipmunks and alien vs predator 2.

National Treasure 2 and Warlords

2007-12-26T11:39:00.000-08:00

last thursday went to watch national treasure 2 with simon and kok keong and went to watch warlords with my parents today. simon and kok keong said national tressure 2 was good but i think it was below par. everything just happened to easily and success was guarenteed so it was like no point watching. i think it could be better.

Warlords i think was rather boring besides having the chance to see takeshi, jet li and andy lau acting together. the story was too slow and some scenes were too violent. my mom said the photography was good but the way they presented the story was poor. my dad liked it thou. so i think different people must have different opinions bout the movie. so u have to watch it yourself to give it a mark!

Merry Christmas to Everyone!!!

2007-12-25T11:45:00.000-08:00

today is christmas day but had no plans with my family so went to yk's christmas party. actually i had planned to go with sher min the other night and i expected her to be at my house about 11am. all thanks to her intelligence she put her phone on silence and only woke up at 11:30am. Tried to call her a few times then called her bro and almost called her mom. was worried k if anything happened to her cause the housephone also nobody picked up. she asked her mom by 12pm but she din allow her to go. by the time until 1pm when i was about to leave her mom allowed her to go. so i waited till 2pm and she said the mom wasnt ready yet so i left alone to yk's house. sher min reached yk's house about 3:30pm coz they got lost. sigh. but eventually she got to the house.

we gambled most of the time in yk's house. but for sher min i can say that she spent 50% of her time there eating. i won about rm20 and she won rm10. after gambling we went to play nintendo Wii. it was rather fun. but so unfair whatever she does, she does better than me in the 1st time. she beat me in boxing and bowling. T.T later on took pics of her in the toilet. coz yk's toilet rite i think the windows broke. so there're actually 2 hole that you could peek in. so i took pics of her from the hole. hehe...

anyway we had lots of chicken dishes for dinner. shortly after dinner we had to leave because sher min's dad came to fetch her but wasnt familiar bout the area. so i had to ask my mom to pick us up and go to wherever the dad was. and i finally saw her dad. white hair!! wise man. lol.
after seeing sher min going up the car then we went to bangsar village to have our christmas dinner at Reunion. and we ended the night by playing big 2 with my mom and sister. lol. and i won rm5. haha.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage.

2007-12-22T11:44:00.000-08:00

today we went for dinner with my aunt. i think she's in her 60s. for the time time in all these years, i looked at her in her eyes and noticed that she's already looking old. then i wandered, i must have been taking things for granted. i asked myself when was the last time i actually looked at someone with a clear mind. i think it was ages ago. i have been letting all these things passing by and didnt even bother to take note of them. then i looked at her husband, he was a wise general, and he looked old too.

To my astonishment, i found out that they were together since secondary school. they stood so strong for each other and went through everything together until now. and im sure it will be the same in the future. what are we talking about here? a relationship that lasts for at least 50 years? i cant even go through with my gf for even more than 5months. i was really tempted to ask what's the secret but i think they do not have the answer too. maybe its just the love they have for each other. i really envy them. really really. i hope i could be like them.

Cempaka Prom Night 07 -Sweet Escape

2007-12-21T04:41:00.000-08:00

This year's cempaka prom night is held at Prince Hotel. Its only an average hotel. Went to prom with Nirosha as prom partner. Met almost all the old friends and it seems that they are doing quite well. i mean the form5s. most of them have found which college to study in which is good.
Actually, to be honest, i was quite disappointed bout the prom. It wasnt fun at all. the food was awful, the performances were in the third division and the nomination for prom king, queen, best dressed female and especially the cutest couple were all so bias.

I had nervous moments during the prom - confronting may ling and ai nee. haha. both being my ex-es and were dancing together in the prom. Felt so heart broken coz they didnt bother to say hi to me. lol.

but in the end got ai nee to take pics with me. may ling left before i had a chance to talk to her. ohya and pn.wan and mr.oo went to the prom too. havent seen pn.wan for like 3 years and i think she got fatter. haha. and mr.oo told me that he'll be going to uk to further his studies next september so we exchanged numbers.

Final wishes : to those who already have bf/gf, pls appreciate them. for those who havent found one yet hope ya will get one soon. ^_^

Aftermath of the break up

2007-12-19T11:59:00.000-08:00

its been 43hours since i last slept and i think im still counting. whenever night comes, i feel all the sorrowness flowing through my body. i duno why. i think coz its night time and its peaceful enough to think bout things calmly. i always felt like calling her but those were times that she was asleep. i really hope to talk to her and to see her. i couldnt really call her in the day coz she would be busy or coz the blood circulation rushes which cause us not to think calmly.

this is the longest time i went without a sleep. its awful. a billion of unsaid words going back and forth in my brain. its a miserable feeling. i hope that we could resolve our problems ourselves rather than just running away from it. i hope you could give me some time to accept the break up. i can be certain that if i go back to UK in this form, i would nvr ever be able to succeed.

Part of former year 11 gathering

2007-12-19T11:25:00.000-08:00

Couldnt sleep for the whole of last night. was too sad coz of the break up. anyway i still went to cempaka school to play football and pass sher min the things that she wanted. and after that went to pavillion.

when we reached pavillion it was about 1pm. so i think it was the hunger that affect our shopping mood. we were in pavillion for about 15mins only and then went through lot 10 to sg.wang and to low yat plaza to have lunch at 3JC. Had curry noodles and it was awesome. it was only daniel and i but simon and kok keong joined in later on. after food we shopped for computer eqs and i bought a headphone and a thumbdrive. Simon called ai nee at that time and found out that she was in lot 10. he was so keen to see her but kok keong was slowing down everything and looked at more computer stuff. by the time we reached lot 10, ai nee has gone back home. i felt a bit sad coz i failed to see her.

we went shopping at isetan grocer and bought a total value of rm110 of ingredients to cook at home. after we reached home, we had problem to cook because the gas has gone flat but we didnt realise we had a spare gas tank until about 7pm. so started cooking and had dinner at 8pm+. at about 10pm, kok keong, simon, daniel and mingzid went to swim until 12pm and i was talking on the phone to sher min bout her family stuff, prom stuff and ai nee's stuff. after that we ended the night by playing big2 and eating mcdonalds (delivery).

17th. The day we started was the day we ended.

2007-12-18T14:28:00.000-08:00

17th july - 17th dec

5 months... 3600 hours... 100 phone calls 3 meetings... 0 quarrels

i have no words to say. the sorrowness is forcing its way out of my heart. flowing through my body. a million words are floating in my mind but i cant even type one out. its an indescribable feeling which can only be felt by the person experiencing it.

if happy memories are meant to be sad? why do we want to have such memories? if sad memories are supposed to be happy? why are we looking for happy memories? i feel sad because all the happy moments are gone and will only become memories. if i feel happy, its because that the sad moments are gone and who cares how bad they were now. does this conclude that if the happier we are in relationships, the worse it feels when we break up? so does it mean that we have to keep happiness and sadness balance in a relationship? im confused. the deduction doesnt sound right.

i was crying till 3am and i went to bed. stupid brain wanted to wake up so only slept for 2hours till 5am. and now 7am still cant get to sleep. why is breaking up so painful?

is it because the relationship is now dead? or is it that you have no other feelings than sad?

i dunno. i only know that i have lots of things to say to you. lots of things i wanna do with you. and lots of things i wanna share with you. TOGETHER!

im too sad to express myself here. so i will just stop here. if u happen to be reading this post, i dun have much to say here, but if u have really decided to leave me, i wish you good luck, and all the best in your life. im always there for u.

The most meaningful ride

2007-12-18T14:21:00.001-08:00

Huhu... woke up at 9am today. guess what!! guess why!! haha... nobody can guess correctly i suppose. today gotta take ai nee and alice see colleges. yeah finally met ai nee. its like the main purpose why i came back for. omg i missed her like no tomorrow!

anyway left house at like 10:20am to cempaka because we agreed to meet there. reached there at about 10:40am and alice was already there waiting although we said we would meet at 11am. so since we had 20mins, i went into the office to get my igcse certificate. phew im so happy they didnt change any of my grades. ^_^ but actually quite disappointed too coz only 5 people got ICE (international certified education) distinction award which is a high school diploma distinction honours. and seb has been talking bout it so i thought it should be a great award which comes with a medal or some sort of things. but it was only a normal cert with name of the person and name of the award. so disappointed!

igcse cert

cie award
ai nee came early today at about 10:50am. was quite surprise coz she was late the last time and she told me that she normally couldnt wake up before 11am if its not a school day. so congrats to her! yeah my mom in macau so the driver is all mine. haha so i could take them to anywhere i like! first destination was taylors college. so travelled down from quepacs to subang. the college didnt look too bad i would say. nowonder two cousins who topped malaysia in education at their times and my sister went there to study. And thanks to the marketing executive's precise explanation now i know more bout the ADTP (american degree transfer program).

after visiting taylors college we went straight to midvalley for lunch. we couldnt decide what to eat for lunch and walked back and forth back and forth thinking of what to eat. in the end we went for korean food. after food i went to have my haircut which was lousy and cost me rm35. and now i look uglier than before having the haircut. look so stupid now.

after that we went to help university college to check out their ADTP. ai nee and alice wanted to know more bout ADTP medicine course there but they didnt have such a thing. so we went in about 15mins then came back out. so very obvious i think they are gonna do ADTP at taylors college. after help university college sent them back to alice house. and that was the end of my day so came back home to take a gooooooodddd rest. i felt so good cause i have not helped ppl like that for a long time ady. helping ppl feels so good.

Reaching There!!

2007-12-12T13:12:00.000-08:00

Its 12th of dec. the day to fly back to malaysia. ahhhhh cant wait till i get back to malaysia. so many friends to meet! so much food to eat! so many places to shop!! and finally can play football for the 1st time in 3months. wah~ cant wait ler.

ohya, my mom planned a great holiday! i will land on malaysia on 13th dec and she's leaving malaysia to bangkok and macau on 17th dec. very smart! i come back they go holiday! bravo!

bus to london heathrow airport from cambridge takes about 3hours and flight waiting period takes about 4hours. and the flight to malaysia is about 12hours. so in total would be spending 19hours on waiting and travelling. omg thats so tough. its like my one day is gone due to that. hope this trip back to malaysia will be fun so that its worth wasting that 19hours!

wish myself a safe flight! go go go malaysia airlines!!

Here i come !

2007-12-11T19:43:00.000-08:00

Huhu im so gonna miss 2 days of classes from tomorrow onwards coz im going down to london!! so means that i have to start packing today. zzz.

i want to visit Emirates Stadium - arsenal's ground. I wanna watch a live match over there. I love!!

So thats all... Have to start packing now. zzz.

Cracked !!

2007-12-08T04:12:00.000-08:00

Today table tennis was from 9-11am. didnt have full 8 hours sleep but still went for the training. 2 guys were there training until after that 3 vietnamese came. 2 girls and 1 boy. i played with the guy 1st. 1st match i won 3-0 and second match i won again 3-1.

later on the guy got tired so the vietnamese girl came over and i asked to challenge. she was like
'oh u wana play match? okie...' because usually before match is warm up stroke so i said nah just start the match. i thought ok you're abit arrogant and so i started the match.

my 1st serve went over and she returned with a back hand smash. it was so fast that i was looking at the ball going pass my left ear. i was like omg... regretted to challenge such a pro girl. she was definitely better than me. and as expected she wont the 1st set. but from 2nd set onwards, i could see how she was playing and i controlled the match and won the 2nd and third set but lost the 4th set. so the score was 2-2. so its all up to the deciding match. the tension was rising like boiling water. she was so happy to get to the half way mark at 5-4. after switching places then i began to dominate again.when i reached 9-5 she started to give up and i won the set by 11-6 which gave me the victory.

i admit... she's the best girl player i have ever played with. thank goodness i accidentally discovered how she was playing if not it would be so ambarassing.

came back took a nap and after dinner played settlers of catan with chan, wei jin, kelvin, alvin, michael, ik hur and our maths teacher. my bones were already cracking due to 4 hours of table tennis yesterday and a tough match today but i still managed to stay awake till 4am.

zzz..... i cant even walk now.... the only thing i can do is sleep.... zzz... so goodnite...

Hurray !!!

2007-12-07T16:00:00.000-08:00

Huhu exams are finally over. i think critical thinking paper was quite easy. finished it in 20mins. omg i could finish core maths 3 and mechanics 1. hate doing mechanics. i was so tired that i didnt bother to finish the paper and went back home to sleep. zzz. and i realised that i prefer writing than calculating. anyway its over!!!

After a short nap went to kelsea kerridge to play table tennis with college friends. 6pm-7pm. then after that went to cambridge university table tennis club for trials. i thought i was going to be one of the best players there but when i went into the hall, i couldnt believe my eyes. they were so good. they were lightning fast and strong. i couldnt believe it. Chinese and English players were the best. i think from what i have seen in MSSS, none of them is better than these ppl training over there. The Englishman told me that now is off-term and about 10 players went back home and will only come back in january. He suggested that i come for trainings and join the club only in january.

anyway i played with a man i think in his 40s or late 30s. he was so so so pro. he beat the Englishman. And he beat me in the 1st match 11-8, 11-8, 11-6 ; 2nd match 11-8, 11-8, 11-3 ; and the third match 11-6, 11-6, 11-3. he was so damn good.

In the end thank god a Frenchman came to challenge me. The scores were 7-11, 11-8, 7-11, 11-9, 20-18. i won 3-2. hehe thanks to him for saving me from being so disgraceful. lol. after that i looked at my watch and it was 10pm. OMG i played table tennis from 6pm-10pm non-stop. and the best thing was i forgot my dinner. haih...

anyway it was fun. i have not played such lovely table tennis for a long long time. and it always feels good to play with those pro players. and yup i'll be attending their training tomorrow from 9-11am. so its time to go bed.

nitessss....

Halfway Through...

2007-12-05T05:03:00.000-08:00

Huhu... halfway through my exam week... 5 more papers left. gambateh!!

monday - philosophy 1. i think i did quite well in this paper. i felt quite confident bout it. but i wonder whether it matches the mark scheme or not.

tuesday - economics 1. i did it too carefully. didnt have enough time to finish 3 parts worth 5marks each. i think those that i have answered can guarentee score 100% because i did too carefully and wrote more than enough for the marks in the questions i answered.

wednesday - maths 1. i think i did pretty well in it. shouldnt be a problem to score above 85%.

exams are till friday. and friday night have to go for trials at Cambridge University Table Tennis Club. hope i could get in and maybe get paid to play?? good luck good luck!!

edexcel exam board is very bad. i have been searching for mark schemes for economics online but couldnt find it. only schools can purchase them and we are only allowed to have it after we finish the units. bad........

Good Luck to Myself

2007-12-02T14:40:00.000-08:00

Starting from tomorrow is my exam week. and 1st subject is philosophy. my god im gonna die soon coz didnt do enough preparation + its such a tough subject to do. after exam week will be feedback week which we would be getting our results back and then its our holiday!!!

Anyway didnt have the best conversations with my gf today. she was quite harsh to me today. i think its because i didnt do very well in my past exams. hope i could score better grades this time. hope she's not mad at me anyone.

So a big GOOD LUCK to myself.

must score 100% 100% 100% 100% 100% 100%

Arggghhhh....

2007-11-23T13:25:00.000-08:00

stupid freedom digital network. paid £120 for such crappy internet connection. damn stupid broke down for 3 weeks. my 3 weeks without internet. T.T

thank god i downloaded loads of scrubs episodes. if not i would have died from boredom. zzz. hmm im still thinking whether to go shopping tomorrow or not. exams' in 2 weeks. have to work hard on philosophy or not my application for PPE in oxford will be so gone. T.T

aw... i miss malaysia... miss my friends too. hope to see u all soon. T.T

Only to you

2007-11-13T13:17:00.000-08:00

A Special Good luck to my gf in her spm.

Hope you do well. *.*

Im always supporting u. ^_^

Love you all the time. <3

KCPRO

SPM!

2007-11-12T13:13:00.000-08:00

TO ALL THE FIFTH FORMERS!

GOOD LUCK IN YOUR SPM!
HOPE ALL OF YOU SCORE STRAIGHT As.

KCPRO

Freedom is useless

2007-11-10T13:04:00.000-08:00

Today went to cambridge city centre to do some shopping. My friend wanted to get a coat and i wanted to hang out So we decided to go shopping. Her friend from vietnam tagged along. When we reached city centre, i was so happy to see that the new shopping complex John Lewis had started operating. Thank god finally there's somewhere like klcc. but its a very very small shopping centre thou. But inside is so grand. Shopped for about 5hours then came home and noticed that the internet connection is down again. Stupid freedom wireless network. Paid 120pounds for it but it breaks down about every 2 days. damn useless. zzz

i duno why i put flash. zzz

Cash Out ~

2007-11-04T09:05:00.000-08:00

Today i when i woke up my cousin from New Zealand asked me to search for a magazine called Home Cinema Choice in the UK. But so unlucky i couldnt find it. Nothing much happened today. I went to Borders to get some books that i might need. So i bought Core mathematics 3, AS economics, philosophy toolkit and ''a pig that wants to be eaten''. I think they are good books but its just too expensive. Total cost was about 50pounds which is rm350. And here are the books :

the pig looks so cute. who would eat it??

maths and econs book

After i came home i went online and began chatting on msn. I was very disappointed with 1 person. A person whom i take him as my brother. I really wanted to type out his name so that he could learn a lesson here but i dont wish to taint his reputation now. And i know nobody here could guess who the guy was cause i dont think anyone knows him. I didnt expect him to do such things at all. Dumped the girlfriend just to be with another girl. Man! where's your loyalty? If u didnt love the girl u were with why were u with her in the 1st place? and break her heart with a lie? do u know how much it hurts for the girl? do u want to be in her position and feel how she feels rite now? if u admit that you're a player, then it wouldnt matter to me. but if u are NOT, and this happens again i'll guarentee that your name will appear here. And im telling u that LOVE is not a JOKE. Its not a game. Im doing this because i love you (as family member). So please learn and do not do the same thing again!

Yummy~

2007-10-26T19:58:00.000-07:00

Finally after spending 2months in cambridge, i found a taiwanese restaurant with malaysian chef and waitress. And finally i got a taste of singapore laksa. Ah! it was so yummy but it wasnt spicy enough. *loves spicy food*

this is the picture of it.

nice or not?? cost me 6.5pounds k? so expensive. can go hilton hotel for nice jap food d. haih...

After that went to grab some instant noodles and headed off to badminton 20minutes later. Badminton was fun today. It was funny rather than to be competitive. It was worth paying the 2pounds plus 1pound entrance fee. 3pounds in total for 2 hours.

Came back and had KFC for dinner. I think KFC here is healtier than in Malaysia cause they use a better quality oil to cook. Was able to keep some for tomorrow's lunch cause the chef bought too much. After dinner i watched titanic (1997) which i just finished downloading yesterday. I did have the memory of watching it but i couldnt remember anything i watched. It was nice. The ending was so sad. Anyway i think it was a brilliant movie. Its old but who cares.

And I noticed that the so called 'heart of the ocean' diamond looks a bit like the necklace i gave to sher min as birthday present.

The 'heart of the ocean diamond' VS sher min with the necklace i gave her

Hmm... actually the necklaces dont really look the same but the 1st time i saw the 'heart of the ocean' sher min's necklace just appeared in my mind. But i think they look quite alike.

Differences : sher min's necklace has no 130carat diamond around it.
Rose Dawson's necklace was a sapphire with 130carat diamond around it.

See sher min... every picture serves for a purpose. It had nothing to do with snooker but its useful now!! I so geng prepared for it long time ago d. see im such a good friend. compare u with her. should thank me!!

BAD NEWS...

2007-10-24T11:50:00.000-07:00

Really really bad news... haih....

this is the email i received from my dad this moring... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

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Hi dear

The tenant of our flat in London gave us notice that they are going to move out in December. So, we would have to come to London to in December to sort out some stuff. The flat is very nice to live in and you both will like it. We intend to rent it out in January, then it will be occupied for another 2 years before we could use it again. I think may be you both should come and stay in our London flat and come back to KL during Easter.

Let me know if it is OK with you both.

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what????? cant go back till easter??? by the time when its easter it will be 2months b4 my AS Examinations. and they will say just stay in cambridge and study. prepare for exams. go back to malaysia in july. im so goona die here i tell u. T.T but what else can i do? haih.

i replied them its not Ok but if there's no choice then we'll obey lo. haih. thats so not what i wanted to say. but what else can we do? haih. T.T sad.....

Sweet 17

2007-10-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

**************************** Happy Birthday May Ling ****************************

Happy Birthday to u and wish u good luck and all the best in life.

Its been a long time since we last spoken to each other. I felt very happy that finally I picked up and the phone and rang you to wish u a very happy birthday. Ever since u left, i had always wanted to do so but just didnt have the guts to. So im quite proud of myself now. HeHe...

And i would like to take this chance to thank you for everything that you have done for me. And for the special moments that we've been through. Your presence has changed my life. Its always wonderful to have such an amazing person like you around. Thanks!

Hope we'll be seeing each other in Malaysia and im anticipating for it to come. ^_^

Anyway Sweet 17 to you~~~

Ohya 23rd oct is my nephew's birthday too!!
happy birthday to you too!!

WEMBLEY DOUBLES!!!

2007-10-18T12:37:00.000-07:00

Today i was introduced to a new football game which is called wembley doubles. Quite interesting i thought. 3 teams of 2 players each will play together with only one goal and a goalkeeper. The team with both players scored up to 3 wins the game.

It was very cloudy when we started and it was pouring with rain halfway through the game. The teams were separated as : 2 nigerians vs 2 vietnamese vs 1 USA, 1 Malaysian (me). Because of the weather condition, we decided that the team with both players scoring 1 goal each will win the game. So all six players were desperate to get a goal for themselves or for their teammates. It began to be tough for us after the nigerian and vietnamese scored. The keeper looked unbeatable after the 1st 2 goals but it wasnt long till i put myself on the scoresheet. 15mins gone and nobody could score. Finally my teammate from USA bagged in a goal through his back-heel. In the end we were declared as the winners.

So happy after the game. Have not played football in the rain for such a long time. The feeling was great.

But in the end i still think that playing football on a sunny day is still the best!!

FINAL HOPE!!!

2007-10-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

Its been a month since i last played football. thank god at last the school managed to organise a club so that we are able to play against each other.

The feeling of having not played football for a month is so different. It was my first time feeling so nervous before the match started. Thats why practice in football is so important!
Because we had majority of vietnamese, so we decided the match should be vietnamese vs rest of world. there were 7 vietnamese vs 6 rest of world ( tom - USA , tim, david - NIGERIA, richard - GB, zzz - vietnam, and KCPRO - malaysia) lol. Tim was one of the strongest footballer on the pitch yesterday and almost all of us got onto the scoresheet. Final score 6 - 8 ( 1 tom, 2 david, 2 tim, 3 KCPRO). Huhu i scored a hat-trick!!! was so delighted. And today when i went to school, some ppl were like : hey, i heard that u are an amazing footballer! and those who played told some of their friends that ka chuan was incredible!! in front of me. Wahahahaha... so fast so famous d. lol.

Ohya and today the posted up a so called Abbey College Table Tennis Ladder with names and their ranks in table tennis. Again my name came top of the list. So happy to be ranked 1st. Hope to continue that till i leave the college. hehe.

Hah... finally im back to my normal life!! I hope that more will happen. In malaysia, my everyday life would be - - - school - football/ table tennis/ badminton - home & nap - dinner - homework - girlfriend/ friend (on d phone or msn) - revision/ sleep. Now finally im able to follow the 1st half of it but not the second half. I so wish to call my gf everyday like i used to but its just abit too difficult coz of the 7 hours diff. I hope i can get it sorted out soon. Hope she will forgive me for that. ^_^

BORED!!!

2007-10-10T14:06:00.000-07:00

zzz...

life's the same everyday. morning wake up - go school - lunch - school again - dota - dinner - cs - hw - revision - sleep.

zzz...

it seems that i just cant fit into the life here. i think its because the ppl that matter to me are not around. eveyday thinking of them, thinking of when i can meet them. other students here are so happy and have fun everyday and just enjoy being here. unlike me, i might look happy at times but there are always things at the back of my head. couldnt concentrate well on anything i do. even when playing table tennis... haih. its been a long time since i last played with the person i enjoyed playing with. about 3months?

this is the 1st time im studying overseas which also means its my 1st time to be apart from all my close friends. its a serious problem for me because im the kind of person who could not live without friends. mayb others could, thats why they could be happy all the time. i hope that my close friends could be admitted to my current college so that my life wont be that miserable anymore.

Hope that will come true. *_*

NEW PILLOW

2007-10-06T10:02:00.000-07:00

HuHu... finally bought new pillow from Dreams. Had been without a decent pillow since i came here. Wanted to get the 100% goose feather pillow but it cost 49pounds. too expensive so didnt get it. On the way back some teenage british girls came kacau us. Wtf was wrong with them? Kurang ajar!

Haih... anyway i was in the mood to talk to old friends so i called back to malaysia. Called abi and sumu 1st. Nice to hear that they are still good. Haha and spm's in 38days so i wish them good luck here. Later on called Nirosha. Felt so happy coz she said so nice to hear your voice. See ppl my voice so sweet. Ppl like listening to my voice.

After Nirosha i called sher min. So happy for her coz she's going to singapore next friday to see her umm umm... u know who! Ohya and im so addicted to dota now. so hope that i'll improve and pawn ppl 9 9 when i return to malaysia.

Thats all for today. Good luck for those who are taking their spm in 38 days.
All the best. ^_^

Abbey Cambridge

2007-10-02T15:47:00.000-07:00

To those who are interested to do their A-lvls in Abbey Cambridge here's a good news for ya...

The school's principal just left to Malaysia. I think he might be in kl from 5th to 11th. So pls make an effort to meet him if u are serious.

His name is Julian Davies and i think you guys can get him through ASA global education.

Phone:
604 227 0373

Fax:
604 227 0552

He is very keen in taking Malaysian students and if u are able to impress him, he might just give u a scholarship! Its a very good college and everyone should consider it. especially for the fifth formers and year 11 students.

Good luck!

Harimau-Helang Reunited !!!

2007-09-24T06:16:00.001-07:00

Omg i seriously cant believe this... i was walking back to my boarding house after i bought my lunch at one of the take away shops. suddfenly a guy bumped into me and started calling my name. I still didnt realise until i looked at him again and again.

Wth... it was Megat. The 2006 Helang captain. I just couldnt believe my eyes. My god the world is so small. I spent so much time looking for him last year to get back my no.10 jersey but he just wasnt around. And suddenly today just bumped into me like there's no other places to meet but in cambridge. Wth... its not something bad but i think its just amazing how we could meet here. And he's nice man. So glad to see him here. And Huhu means that i am not the only ex-cempakan here. Hope there are still more cempakans here as well so we could meet up...

Hmm.... Its about time to get back to college now...
So,
bye bye~

Crazy

2007-09-18T12:12:00.000-07:00

20days after I arrived cambridge, finally it rained... It was yesterday. The rain was about 5mins loong but it was still good enough for me to experience rain in the uk. Leaves started falling down. signalling the end of summer and beginning of autumn.

The weather was freezing cold this morning. I think it was about 23'C yesterday and it dropped down to 7'C overnight. My godness it was so cold that i almost decided not to go to college as the route to college is about 3-4km. Zzz... Btw i experienced something that i nvr experienced before during the walk. For the 1st time in my life i could see my own breath while i was talking... it was so cool. It was so interesting. So i kept talking and breathing rapidly on the way to college. I know... so jakun rite? cant help it... it was something new to me...

After returning from college went to boarding house's new laundry room. Can anyone guess how much it costs for using the the washing machine and dryer machine per time? i tell u... u cant believe it... it costs 4pounds in total to wash and to dry. Damn expensive rite? how can they charge students at such a high price. haih... i would rather go to marks and spencer and buy their clothes and return to them after a few days. Full refund somemore. But since im such a nice person *ahem ahem* i wont do such things.

Now i finally realised that there are many good and bad things bout UK. I thought that everything was free before I came. Its true. You get free handphones (contract users only) and free health care + free medicine (everyone) but other things are so expensive. And i never expected to pay 2pounds per person to play table tennis at a sports club for only 1 hour. But hehe its not a big problem anyway for a footballer. If u come to UK, u can play football anywhere coz there are lots and lots of football fields and lots and lots of international + national players who play football at almost anytime in the day.

Oh ya and I heard of lots of comments on cempaka football club after i left school. I think they are serious about the downfall of cempaka football club. I wish that somebody could tell me a little bit more about this so that i can try to help. Best wishes to the club.

GOOD LUCK CFC
WE ROCK!!!

10th day in cambridge

2007-09-09T17:47:00.000-07:00

Well it isnt that much in cambridge i must say. or its just that i havent been to all the interesting places yet. but anyway college's starting next week. Just cant wait for it to start as soon as possible. haih finally the 3months holiday is over. T.T now only I realised 3 months is actually such a long time. So many things happened in the past 3 months. Hopefully im returning to malaysia for christmas. That would be I cant wait till i get back to kl. Omg thats about 3 1/2 months from now. T.T I miss ai nee so much. miss her like no tomorrow. I so hope to see her again. Ohhya for sure I miss all my other friends there who care for me as well. T.T i think mostly of them would have finished their spm when i return! So good luck to the fifth formers. Wah when i return can go out syok syok d... hmm... should start planning now where we should go!

OMG just received a phone call from my sister. T.T she said christmas flight to malaysia almost all fully booked and only those costing more than rm5000 are available... T.T yer i wanna go back!! i dont want to spend the whole of my christmas crying alone in uk. T.T that will be kinda sad. T.T

Ok now lets go back to cambridge. hmm... wat else? ohya i kinda like my college coz the staff here are so friendly and so 'pro'... lol... so for my a-lvls i would be doing philosophy, economics, maths, further maths and critical thinking. was advised not to do accounting for a-lvls as it wont help in my application to oxford university. So had to drop it even before i started it. haih... So my aim now is to score 5As at a-lvls and gain a place in oxford to do philosophy, economics and politics. If not then economics at London School of Economics or MBA at any of the top 20 universities in the world. Hehe...

So a big big suggestion for those doing IGCSE and SPM this year or next is to study hard and get into good colleges so that dream of getting into Harvard,Oxford or Cambridge University will come true. Ohya and this does not mean that those doing UPSR can do badly... at some point UPSR matters too.

So.........

A BIG GOOD LUCK TO:

LAU SHAO HAN
TAN RU SHENG

Hope both of u score straight As in your UPSR...

GOOD LUCK,

BYE

On the plane...

2007-08-29T02:43:00.001-07:00

Leaving home for the first time isn't easy. A mixed feeling of sadness and happiness makes you think again and again that whether it was the right decision to study abroad alone. I miss my friends, friends that have been together with me all the while. They mean so much to me. And i just couldnt let go that easily. I just cant stop thinking of them. Even until the minute that I stepped into the plane, I was still trying to contact them.

To be specific, I miss sher min and ai nee the most. I'll only blog bout sher min in this post. We knew each other for just a year. But it felt like i have known her since i was alive. We just passed our 1 year frenship and a 13 days later that which is now, Im leaving. It cannot be denied that i acutally like her very much. I have spent most of my time with her since i knew her. It was so tough not to see her for just a day. She is a person who cared for her friends, who would strive to help them even when its not in her favour. She is not nobody to me. She's my sister, a sister from other parents. I will definitely miss her in England. I will miss the days that we shop in midvalley, and will definitely miss her look and voice when she calls me stupid. I was listening to avril lavigne's album : the best damned thing. It just non-stop reminding me of her. And i dunno how many times i have cried typing this post in the plane. my tears just couldnt stop dropping. I still remember the first time i saw her. It was during the cempaka big splash. She called me a pervert while i was anticipating for the moment when the girls came out of the swimming pool. Our friendship started on her birthday, 14th aug. From that day onwards, we chatted almost everyday, played gunbound whenever we had nothing to do or talked on the phone for several hours. I still remember when i was staying with kok keong, she tried so hard to go out with me to watch banquet because I was sad during that time. And there was once that i was feeling down and needed to take a break. I was supprised that she went to discuss with her parents and offered help to take me to genting to join the f3 trip. I thanked her alot for that. Since then, we spent more and more time together with each other. 1stly was 15mins, then 1 hour, then 3 hours, then 7 hours and last friday 11 hours. How can I take it when suddenly she's not beside me anymore? What happends when i have problems? Can anyone else help me like how she helps me? can anyone replace her position in my life? How would my life be without her? I seriously dont want to imagine it and i wont want to imagine my past without her. What i can do now is to thank her. Thank her for what she has done for me. Thank her for making my life wonderful. Thank her for caring me. Thank her for solving problems with me. Thank her for spending her time with me. Thank you Sher Min.

Hope u have a wonderful life in Malaysia. Hope u still enjoy yourself when im not around. I will see you soon. And hope you grow to D or E soon.

This is the song for you!! hope u like it!!

Byez.