08 Countdown !!!

today was the last day of 2007. i woke up at about 12pm and went for lunch at Jaya 33. Lunch was good and when we reached home it was about 3pm. And about 4pm only i told my mom i had plans with my friends so i went out by LRT rather than the driver taking me to where i wanted to go. Before reaching LRT station syed called me and i said i was going to sg.wang for countdown so he suggested that i go to setiawangsa to meet him then go to pavillion. i did that but then no taxis wanted to take us to pavillion so we were forced to take LRT to KLCC then take taxi to Pavillion. That stupid taxi driver said it was very jam and charged us rm12 but the ride was only 2minutes.

At pavillion we met xin yin and wei kit. woohoo what a sweet couple. then after that we met up with kok keong, simon, yang ming and friends then after that wan ling and ee zeen. we were so stupid walking round and round just to decide where to have dinner. i think it took us about 30minutes till we decided to eat in a thai restaurant. the food was so so only but the price was so expensive. uk price!! wan ling's friend quin lane joined us for dinner but she only had a drink. and i think syed is interestedin her. haha...

after food we went searching for tania as she was abit late and the place was crowded already. we waited 1 hour for tania and yang ming to purchase the sprays. at last we got the sprays but we didnt get tania. so we started the spray wall till it was beginning to rain then we went to wan ling's rented apartment. came back out at about 11:45pm and still had 5minutes spare for countdown. everything at bintang walk was so stupid. they only played chinese songs and even the countdown was in cantonese. wth. this is not chinese new year. its a new year for everyone. swt.

fireworks were shot directly above us and i was abit scared that the bits of the fireworks would fall on me. but thank god it didnt happen. after the celebration we went back to wan ling's apartment and we met tania just outside times square. so we all had fun playing big 2 + eating maggi cups till 2am in the morning.

Anyway HAPPY 2008 to everyone!!!

Counting down - 10 days left !!!

today went to sunway pyramid with my sister. i went there to meet sher min and my sister went there to have lunch with her boyfriend. we reached there about 11:30am. after walking alone for about 30mins, benjamin from cempaka international suddenly bumped into me. lol. he was with ex cempakan leon and he kept complaining that there was nothing much to do in sunway pyramid so i suggested to go to the arcade. we spent quite some time there playing stupid video games then went to ice skating there for a nice view to look at the girls. lol. haha we looked quite stupid there.

until 2:30pm then sher min arrived. we went straight to dragon-i for lunch. benjamin and leon left us. sher min was complaining that i ordered too much and nobody was going to finish the food but i didnt care and ordered as i liked. haha. she's eating too little and must get enough nutrients to grow. i think she should grow in other places rather than to grow in height. she's tall enough d or not i wont be able to go out with her if she wears heels.

today was one of the few times that she was lazy to shop due to girl's problem so she only bought 1 dress. at about 4pm we went home. we had nothing much to do at home. we played big 2, played chess and played with my webcam. my god i couldnt believe that she beat me in chess due to my very very careless mistake. sigh... she got lucky... thats why.

at about 7:30pm we went to jaya 33 in PJ for dinner but it was fully booked due to wedding dinner. So we had to try our luck in bangsar village 2's Reunion. unfortunately it was full too so we went to chatterzbox. after ordering food we went to zara. i was so astonished that she took less than 10mins to choose a top, tried it and bought it. i think it all took 8-9mins. so my lesson was girls could do things really very fast if they wanted to.

sher min's friend farah was very punctual as she arrieved at 10pm which was what she told sher min. after sher min left i continued playing mahjong with my parents. won a total of rm35. huhu.

this is sher min cleaning my shoe...

this is us.

GOLDEN COMPASS, then I AM LEGEND

today went to the curve for 2 movies. 1st movie was at 1pm - Golden Compass. I think it was a very good movie. the showed quite a number of places in oxford in the beginning of the movie. most of the places that i have been to in oxford and im praying that i could get into oxford university 2 years later. the demons which are also humans' souls are so cute. and the best was the ice bear. the fighting was good. in a whole it was very well done. 9/10 is what i would rate it.

I AM LEGEND was at 5pm. and it was a very good movie too. it made sense in its own way. scary scenes were really frightening. i would advise that ppl with heart attack problem do not watch it. its a super exciting movie. some scenes were depressing too. sigh... those were very sad. anyway im looking forward to alvin & chipmunks and alien vs predator 2.

National Treasure 2 and Warlords

last thursday went to watch national treasure 2 with simon and kok keong and went to watch warlords with my parents today. simon and kok keong said national tressure 2 was good but i think it was below par. everything just happened to easily and success was guarenteed so it was like no point watching. i think it could be better.

Warlords i think was rather boring besides having the chance to see takeshi, jet li and andy lau acting together. the story was too slow and some scenes were too violent. my mom said the photography was good but the way they presented the story was poor. my dad liked it thou. so i think different people must have different opinions bout the movie. so u have to watch it yourself to give it a mark!

Merry Christmas to Everyone!!!

today is christmas day but had no plans with my family so went to yk's christmas party. actually i had planned to go with sher min the other night and i expected her to be at my house about 11am. all thanks to her intelligence she put her phone on silence and only woke up at 11:30am. Tried to call her a few times then called her bro and almost called her mom. was worried k if anything happened to her cause the housephone also nobody picked up. she asked her mom by 12pm but she din allow her to go. by the time until 1pm when i was about to leave her mom allowed her to go. so i waited till 2pm and she said the mom wasnt ready yet so i left alone to yk's house. sher min reached yk's house about 3:30pm coz they got lost. sigh. but eventually she got to the house.

we gambled most of the time in yk's house. but for sher min i can say that she spent 50% of her time there eating. i won about rm20 and she won rm10. after gambling we went to play nintendo Wii. it was rather fun. but so unfair whatever she does, she does better than me in the 1st time. she beat me in boxing and bowling. T.T later on took pics of her in the toilet. coz yk's toilet rite i think the windows broke. so there're actually 2 hole that you could peek in. so i took pics of her from the hole. hehe...

anyway we had lots of chicken dishes for dinner. shortly after dinner we had to leave because sher min's dad came to fetch her but wasnt familiar bout the area. so i had to ask my mom to pick us up and go to wherever the dad was. and i finally saw her dad. white hair!! wise man. lol.
after seeing sher min going up the car then we went to bangsar village to have our christmas dinner at Reunion. and we ended the night by playing big 2 with my mom and sister. lol. and i won rm5. haha.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage.

today we went for dinner with my aunt. i think she's in her 60s. for the time time in all these years, i looked at her in her eyes and noticed that she's already looking old. then i wandered, i must have been taking things for granted. i asked myself when was the last time i actually looked at someone with a clear mind. i think it was ages ago. i have been letting all these things passing by and didnt even bother to take note of them. then i looked at her husband, he was a wise general, and he looked old too.

To my astonishment, i found out that they were together since secondary school. they stood so strong for each other and went through everything together until now. and im sure it will be the same in the future. what are we talking about here? a relationship that lasts for at least 50 years? i cant even go through with my gf for even more than 5months. i was really tempted to ask what's the secret but i think they do not have the answer too. maybe its just the love they have for each other. i really envy them. really really. i hope i could be like them.

Cempaka Prom Night 07 -Sweet Escape

This year's cempaka prom night is held at Prince Hotel. Its only an average hotel. Went to prom with Nirosha as prom partner. Met almost all the old friends and it seems that they are doing quite well. i mean the form5s. most of them have found which college to study in which is good.
Actually, to be honest, i was quite disappointed bout the prom. It wasnt fun at all. the food was awful, the performances were in the third division and the nomination for prom king, queen, best dressed female and especially the cutest couple were all so bias.

I had nervous moments during the prom - confronting may ling and ai nee. haha. both being my ex-es and were dancing together in the prom. Felt so heart broken coz they didnt bother to say hi to me. lol.

but in the end got ai nee to take pics with me. may ling left before i had a chance to talk to her. ohya and pn.wan and mr.oo went to the prom too. havent seen pn.wan for like 3 years and i think she got fatter. haha. and mr.oo told me that he'll be going to uk to further his studies next september so we exchanged numbers.

Final wishes : to those who already have bf/gf, pls appreciate them. for those who havent found one yet hope ya will get one soon. ^_^

Aftermath of the break up

its been 43hours since i last slept and i think im still counting. whenever night comes, i feel all the sorrowness flowing through my body. i duno why. i think coz its night time and its peaceful enough to think bout things calmly. i always felt like calling her but those were times that she was asleep. i really hope to talk to her and to see her. i couldnt really call her in the day coz she would be busy or coz the blood circulation rushes which cause us not to think calmly.

this is the longest time i went without a sleep. its awful. a billion of unsaid words going back and forth in my brain. its a miserable feeling. i hope that we could resolve our problems ourselves rather than just running away from it. i hope you could give me some time to accept the break up. i can be certain that if i go back to UK in this form, i would nvr ever be able to succeed.

Part of former year 11 gathering

Couldnt sleep for the whole of last night. was too sad coz of the break up. anyway i still went to cempaka school to play football and pass sher min the things that she wanted. and after that went to pavillion.

when we reached pavillion it was about 1pm. so i think it was the hunger that affect our shopping mood. we were in pavillion for about 15mins only and then went through lot 10 to sg.wang and to low yat plaza to have lunch at 3JC. Had curry noodles and it was awesome. it was only daniel and i but simon and kok keong joined in later on. after food we shopped for computer eqs and i bought a headphone and a thumbdrive. Simon called ai nee at that time and found out that she was in lot 10. he was so keen to see her but kok keong was slowing down everything and looked at more computer stuff. by the time we reached lot 10, ai nee has gone back home. i felt a bit sad coz i failed to see her.

we went shopping at isetan grocer and bought a total value of rm110 of ingredients to cook at home. after we reached home, we had problem to cook because the gas has gone flat but we didnt realise we had a spare gas tank until about 7pm. so started cooking and had dinner at 8pm+. at about 10pm, kok keong, simon, daniel and mingzid went to swim until 12pm and i was talking on the phone to sher min bout her family stuff, prom stuff and ai nee's stuff. after that we ended the night by playing big2 and eating mcdonalds (delivery).

17th. The day we started was the day we ended.

17th july - 17th dec

5 months... 3600 hours... 100 phone calls 3 meetings... 0 quarrels

i have no words to say. the sorrowness is forcing its way out of my heart. flowing through my body. a million words are floating in my mind but i cant even type one out. its an indescribable feeling which can only be felt by the person experiencing it.

if happy memories are meant to be sad? why do we want to have such memories? if sad memories are supposed to be happy? why are we looking for happy memories? i feel sad because all the happy moments are gone and will only become memories. if i feel happy, its because that the sad moments are gone and who cares how bad they were now. does this conclude that if the happier we are in relationships, the worse it feels when we break up? so does it mean that we have to keep happiness and sadness balance in a relationship? im confused. the deduction doesnt sound right.

i was crying till 3am and i went to bed. stupid brain wanted to wake up so only slept for 2hours till 5am. and now 7am still cant get to sleep. why is breaking up so painful?

is it because the relationship is now dead? or is it that you have no other feelings than sad?

i dunno. i only know that i have lots of things to say to you. lots of things i wanna do with you. and lots of things i wanna share with you. TOGETHER!

im too sad to express myself here. so i will just stop here. if u happen to be reading this post, i dun have much to say here, but if u have really decided to leave me, i wish you good luck, and all the best in your life. im always there for u.

The most meaningful ride

Huhu... woke up at 9am today. guess what!! guess why!! haha... nobody can guess correctly i suppose. today gotta take ai nee and alice see colleges. yeah finally met ai nee. its like the main purpose why i came back for. omg i missed her like no tomorrow!

anyway left house at like 10:20am to cempaka because we agreed to meet there. reached there at about 10:40am and alice was already there waiting although we said we would meet at 11am. so since we had 20mins, i went into the office to get my igcse certificate. phew im so happy they didnt change any of my grades. ^_^ but actually quite disappointed too coz only 5 people got ICE (international certified education) distinction award which is a high school diploma distinction honours. and seb has been talking bout it so i thought it should be a great award which comes with a medal or some sort of things. but it was only a normal cert with name of the person and name of the award. so disappointed!

igcse cert

cie award
ai nee came early today at about 10:50am. was quite surprise coz she was late the last time and she told me that she normally couldnt wake up before 11am if its not a school day. so congrats to her! yeah my mom in macau so the driver is all mine. haha so i could take them to anywhere i like! first destination was taylors college. so travelled down from quepacs to subang. the college didnt look too bad i would say. nowonder two cousins who topped malaysia in education at their times and my sister went there to study. And thanks to the marketing executive's precise explanation now i know more bout the ADTP (american degree transfer program).

after visiting taylors college we went straight to midvalley for lunch. we couldnt decide what to eat for lunch and walked back and forth back and forth thinking of what to eat. in the end we went for korean food. after food i went to have my haircut which was lousy and cost me rm35. and now i look uglier than before having the haircut. look so stupid now.

after that we went to help university college to check out their ADTP. ai nee and alice wanted to know more bout ADTP medicine course there but they didnt have such a thing. so we went in about 15mins then came back out. so very obvious i think they are gonna do ADTP at taylors college. after help university college sent them back to alice house. and that was the end of my day so came back home to take a gooooooodddd rest. i felt so good cause i have not helped ppl like that for a long time ady. helping ppl feels so good.

Reaching There!!

Its 12th of dec. the day to fly back to malaysia. ahhhhh cant wait till i get back to malaysia. so many friends to meet! so much food to eat! so many places to shop!! and finally can play football for the 1st time in 3months. wah~ cant wait ler.

ohya, my mom planned a great holiday! i will land on malaysia on 13th dec and she's leaving malaysia to bangkok and macau on 17th dec. very smart! i come back they go holiday! bravo!

bus to london heathrow airport from cambridge takes about 3hours and flight waiting period takes about 4hours. and the flight to malaysia is about 12hours. so in total would be spending 19hours on waiting and travelling. omg thats so tough. its like my one day is gone due to that. hope this trip back to malaysia will be fun so that its worth wasting that 19hours!

wish myself a safe flight! go go go malaysia airlines!!

Here i come !

Huhu im so gonna miss 2 days of classes from tomorrow onwards coz im going down to london!! so means that i have to start packing today. zzz.

i want to visit Emirates Stadium - arsenal's ground. I wanna watch a live match over there. I love!!

So thats all... Have to start packing now. zzz.

Cracked !!

Today table tennis was from 9-11am. didnt have full 8 hours sleep but still went for the training. 2 guys were there training until after that 3 vietnamese came. 2 girls and 1 boy. i played with the guy 1st. 1st match i won 3-0 and second match i won again 3-1.

later on the guy got tired so the vietnamese girl came over and i asked to challenge. she was like
'oh u wana play match? okie...' because usually before match is warm up stroke so i said nah just start the match. i thought ok you're abit arrogant and so i started the match.

my 1st serve went over and she returned with a back hand smash. it was so fast that i was looking at the ball going pass my left ear. i was like omg... regretted to challenge such a pro girl. she was definitely better than me. and as expected she wont the 1st set. but from 2nd set onwards, i could see how she was playing and i controlled the match and won the 2nd and third set but lost the 4th set. so the score was 2-2. so its all up to the deciding match. the tension was rising like boiling water. she was so happy to get to the half way mark at 5-4. after switching places then i began to dominate again.when i reached 9-5 she started to give up and i won the set by 11-6 which gave me the victory.

i admit... she's the best girl player i have ever played with. thank goodness i accidentally discovered how she was playing if not it would be so ambarassing.

came back took a nap and after dinner played settlers of catan with chan, wei jin, kelvin, alvin, michael, ik hur and our maths teacher. my bones were already cracking due to 4 hours of table tennis yesterday and a tough match today but i still managed to stay awake till 4am.

zzz..... i cant even walk now.... the only thing i can do is sleep.... zzz... so goodnite...

Hurray !!!

Huhu exams are finally over. i think critical thinking paper was quite easy. finished it in 20mins. omg i could finish core maths 3 and mechanics 1. hate doing mechanics. i was so tired that i didnt bother to finish the paper and went back home to sleep. zzz. and i realised that i prefer writing than calculating. anyway its over!!!

After a short nap went to kelsea kerridge to play table tennis with college friends. 6pm-7pm. then after that went to cambridge university table tennis club for trials. i thought i was going to be one of the best players there but when i went into the hall, i couldnt believe my eyes. they were so good. they were lightning fast and strong. i couldnt believe it. Chinese and English players were the best. i think from what i have seen in MSSS, none of them is better than these ppl training over there. The Englishman told me that now is off-term and about 10 players went back home and will only come back in january. He suggested that i come for trainings and join the club only in january.

anyway i played with a man i think in his 40s or late 30s. he was so so so pro. he beat the Englishman. And he beat me in the 1st match 11-8, 11-8, 11-6 ; 2nd match 11-8, 11-8, 11-3 ; and the third match 11-6, 11-6, 11-3. he was so damn good.

In the end thank god a Frenchman came to challenge me. The scores were 7-11, 11-8, 7-11, 11-9, 20-18. i won 3-2. hehe thanks to him for saving me from being so disgraceful. lol. after that i looked at my watch and it was 10pm. OMG i played table tennis from 6pm-10pm non-stop. and the best thing was i forgot my dinner. haih...

anyway it was fun. i have not played such lovely table tennis for a long long time. and it always feels good to play with those pro players. and yup i'll be attending their training tomorrow from 9-11am. so its time to go bed.

nitessss....

Halfway Through...

Huhu... halfway through my exam week... 5 more papers left. gambateh!!

monday - philosophy 1. i think i did quite well in this paper. i felt quite confident bout it. but i wonder whether it matches the mark scheme or not.

tuesday - economics 1. i did it too carefully. didnt have enough time to finish 3 parts worth 5marks each. i think those that i have answered can guarentee score 100% because i did too carefully and wrote more than enough for the marks in the questions i answered.

wednesday - maths 1. i think i did pretty well in it. shouldnt be a problem to score above 85%.

exams are till friday. and friday night have to go for trials at Cambridge University Table Tennis Club. hope i could get in and maybe get paid to play?? good luck good luck!!

edexcel exam board is very bad. i have been searching for mark schemes for economics online but couldnt find it. only schools can purchase them and we are only allowed to have it after we finish the units. bad........

Good Luck to Myself

Starting from tomorrow is my exam week. and 1st subject is philosophy. my god im gonna die soon coz didnt do enough preparation + its such a tough subject to do. after exam week will be feedback week which we would be getting our results back and then its our holiday!!!

Anyway didnt have the best conversations with my gf today. she was quite harsh to me today. i think its because i didnt do very well in my past exams. hope i could score better grades this time. hope she's not mad at me anyone.

So a big GOOD LUCK to myself.

must score 100% 100% 100% 100% 100% 100%