Leaving home for the first time isn't easy. A mixed feeling of sadness and happiness makes you think again and again that whether it was the right decision to study abroad alone. I miss my friends, friends that have been together with me all the while. They mean so much to me. And i just couldnt let go that easily. I just cant stop thinking of them. Even until the minute that I stepped into the plane, I was still trying to contact them.
To be specific, I miss sher min and ai nee the most. I'll only blog bout sher min in this post. We knew each other for just a year. But it felt like i have known her since i was alive. We just passed our 1 year frenship and a 13 days later that which is now, Im leaving. It cannot be denied that i acutally like her very much. I have spent most of my time with her since i knew her. It was so tough not to see her for just a day. She is a person who cared for her friends, who would strive to help them even when its not in her favour. She is not nobody to me. She's my sister, a sister from other parents. I will definitely miss her in England. I will miss the days that we shop in midvalley, and will definitely miss her look and voice when she calls me stupid. I was listening to avril lavigne's album : the best damned thing. It just non-stop reminding me of her. And i dunno how many times i have cried typing this post in the plane. my tears just couldnt stop dropping. I still remember the first time i saw her. It was during the cempaka big splash. She called me a pervert while i was anticipating for the moment when the girls came out of the swimming pool. Our friendship started on her birthday, 14th aug. From that day onwards, we chatted almost everyday, played gunbound whenever we had nothing to do or talked on the phone for several hours. I still remember when i was staying with kok keong, she tried so hard to go out with me to watch banquet because I was sad during that time. And there was once that i was feeling down and needed to take a break. I was supprised that she went to discuss with her parents and offered help to take me to genting to join the f3 trip. I thanked her alot for that. Since then, we spent more and more time together with each other. 1stly was 15mins, then 1 hour, then 3 hours, then 7 hours and last friday 11 hours. How can I take it when suddenly she's not beside me anymore? What happends when i have problems? Can anyone else help me like how she helps me? can anyone replace her position in my life? How would my life be without her? I seriously dont want to imagine it and i wont want to imagine my past without her. What i can do now is to thank her. Thank her for what she has done for me. Thank her for making my life wonderful. Thank her for caring me. Thank her for solving problems with me. Thank her for spending her time with me. Thank you Sher Min.
Hope u have a wonderful life in Malaysia. Hope u still enjoy yourself when im not around. I will see you soon. And hope you grow to D or E soon.
This is the song for you!! hope u like it!!
Byez.
