Tuesday 18 December 2007

17th. The day we started was the day we ended.

17th july - 17th dec

5 months... 3600 hours... 100 phone calls 3 meetings... 0 quarrels

i have no words to say. the sorrowness is forcing its way out of my heart. flowing through my body. a million words are floating in my mind but i cant even type one out. its an indescribable feeling which can only be felt by the person experiencing it.

if happy memories are meant to be sad? why do we want to have such memories? if sad memories are supposed to be happy? why are we looking for happy memories? i feel sad because all the happy moments are gone and will only become memories. if i feel happy, its because that the sad moments are gone and who cares how bad they were now. does this conclude that if the happier we are in relationships, the worse it feels when we break up? so does it mean that we have to keep happiness and sadness balance in a relationship? im confused. the deduction doesnt sound right.

i was crying till 3am and i went to bed. stupid brain wanted to wake up so only slept for 2hours till 5am. and now 7am still cant get to sleep. why is breaking up so painful?

is it because the relationship is now dead? or is it that you have no other feelings than sad?

i dunno. i only know that i have lots of things to say to you. lots of things i wanna do with you. and lots of things i wanna share with you. TOGETHER!

im too sad to express myself here. so i will just stop here. if u happen to be reading this post, i dun have much to say here, but if u have really decided to leave me, i wish you good luck, and all the best in your life. im always there for u.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

haihz.. dun be depressed la.. u depress until din realise that i knew =.=" wad la u.. =X i practically went thru the same thing, but i doubt ai nee is as insensitive as ur "bro". but if u need to talk bout anything (aiya, talk about harimau again oso can la), jez call me :D haha.